A tale of a fruit...

16th December 2011

2011-12-15T22:14:00.001-08:00

The longest night of my life...

2011-12-10T22:54:00.000-08:00

As I saw she took her last breath, her eyes were rolled up, her lips were blue...and then quietly her eyes were close. My heart tried not to believe what my mind been telling me. But as the doctor pronounce her death... I felt like my heart crushed into million pieces. I ran towards her body and hug her tight hoping that she will wake up. They tried to pull me away, so that my tears wont shed on her. I sat down on the floor, holding her hands and cried my heart out. My dad pull me and hug me to calm down......

She was lying on the bed, with her body covered with clean cloth. People were coming in and out to visit her for the last time. Relatives and friends were there too, riciding Surah Yassin. The closest ones mourned and could not believe that she has gone. They hugged me to give emotional support.

I tried so hard not to cry. I watched her body lying in front of me. My mind was flying without any direction. I was not able to sleep, not even a second. After reciding Surah Yassin for her, I lay my head on her side. My tears could not stop running. I lost my mother, a friend, a shelter and everything. We used to share everything, shoes, hijab, pins, jewelery, cars...and now I was alone.......

Everything happen so fast at the moment God took her away, but the night before we buried her was the longest night of my life.

Mama, saya tak sempat nak mintak ampun dengan Mama atas segala salah dan silap saya selama ni.

Mama, masa saya sakit raya haji haritu, mama betul-betul jaga saya. Buat air, masak bubur, urut kepala. Saya rasa lain sangat masa tu, tak tau plak it was your last raya with us.

Mama, people keep on asking me, kenapa sanggup berulang dari rumah ke tempat kerja. Saya selalu cakap, senang sebab malas nak pikir nak masak and basuh baju. Sebab mama ade. Tapi siapa pun tak tahu, saya duduk rumah sebab nak teman mama. Sebab sejak Qawi masuk Asrama, mama duduk sorang, Ayah jarang balik. Weekend, saya selalu takde pegi kelas. Lepas balik kerja and pagi before pegi kerja je saya ada untuk mama. I'm glad that I made that decision.

Mama, banyak mama berkorban untuk kami. Mama terluka, sakit dan menderita sebab Ayah kawin lain. Tapi mama tetap ada untuk kami.

Mama, walaupun ayah macam tu, dia tetap sayangkan mama. I can see through his eyes, he is heartbroken. 2, 3 hari ni saya masak. Saya tak tahu masak yang selalu mama masak. Ayah keep on mentioning, 'mama masak sedap lagi'. Even selama ni Ayah selalu kata mama masak masin la, manis la. Tapi, saya tahu. He loves your cook. And sure he gonna miss ur cucur udang.

Mama, walau sehancur mana pun hati saya meredhakan mama pergi. Saya nak mama tahu, saya sayang mama sangat-sangat, Jangan risau pasal Apit, Qawi, Ayah and maktok. I'll try my very best to make sure their needs, so that they won't feel so empty and lost since u're not here with us. Don't worry about Tom & Mimiey, and also Sugar and Boy. Saya akan duduk sini, selagi mampu and bagi diorang makan. Qawi akan jaga pokok-pokok mama. Dia janji nak buat landscape yang mama teringin sangat nak buat tu

Mama, saya tak sempat balas jasa mama and jaga mama sebaik-baiknya. Tapi saya harap, mama happy dengan apa saya buat untuk mama. InsyaAllah, doa saya akan sentiasa untuk mama, Sebab tu je yang tinggal yang boleh saya bagi untuk mama.

Mama, saya sayang mama sangat-sangat. Rumah ni rasa sunyi mama takde. Bulan depan Qawi pergi PLKN lepas tu sambung study plak. Saya tinggal sorang je nanti dekat rumah ni. Nanti mama datang la jengok okay. Saya takut duduk sorang-sorang....

Mama, banyak benda nak bagitau mama sampai tak tertulis.

Mama, nanti kita jumpa lagi....InsyaAllah...

Mama....

2011-12-09T21:54:00.001-08:00

Rindu sangat....

Bola...

2011-11-21T08:45:00.001-08:00

Penat tgk bola mlm ni. Asalnye xdela minat pun. Tp sbb xde spe in my family yg minat n join ayah tgk bola. Automatik je jd minat. Harapkn my 2 bros mmg x la. Main kad Pokemon blehla. Anyway congrats to our team- Harimau Muda. Semua da lakukan yg terbaik. Kapten n Goal keeper pling ptut diberi pujian. Xyhla kutuk2 yg miss gol tu at least dia cuba byk kali cuma xbnsb baik je. Semangat bola ni lbih skit dr acara sukan SEA yg lain. Walau kalah keseluruhan...at least semua da berusaha sehabis baik. Congrats n terima kasih kpd semua peserta terutama yg dpt Gold Medal n medal2 lain. Ade jgk nk tnjuk kt ank cucu besok.

Kenduri kendara

2011-11-12T22:04:00.001-08:00

Byk undangan kawen minggu ni. Huhu Sejk smbung std ni semua knduri pg time last2 je. Tu pn jnuh bkjar2.Time org da nk kmas.mkn pn xsmpt. Xpla yg penting dtg jgk bg support kwan2. But wondering whether they will do the same for me?

Anak2 Motorola

2011-09-07T18:11:00.001-07:00

Da besar da diorang.....nakal plak tu...luv u Tom n Jerry....

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RAYA KEDUA

2011-08-30T22:12:00.001-07:00

Aktiviti raya kedua...melepak depan tv

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Sabtu pagi

2011-08-26T15:22:00.001-07:00

Semangat buat kek n puding smp tgh mlm sbb nk bg my fren Yusrina sbb dia nk singgah japgi. Smlm pnt skit xckup tido sbb pg amik my bro kat MRSM Trolak...ate..jauuh bebeno sekolah si gemuk tu..sbb pnat resepi lupe bubih itu lupe bubuh ini..haha..topping cake tu sbnya air panas 1/4 cup..cmne la bleh pg bce 1 cup...cayor ceklat teman...haha...so tpksa mengkreatifkn diri dgn tmbah whipping cream.tmbah marshmallow.da la kne masak dkt sjam nk tgu marshmallow tu cair..nsebb jdik! Puding caramel plak lupe bubuh esen vanilla...nseb susu2 tu cver bau telur.tp puding kali ini rse lain bebeno.npk keras.bile mkn..melt in the mouth..rse mcm kuih pelita..maybe xckup msak.or susu pekat die pekat sgt...TAPI sodap juge rsr cmtu...lain dr lain..huhuhu...anyway ni choco moist cake yg jadi...puding xsmpat snsp gmba da potong..sahur td satu family mkn cmpur yg packing utk Yusrina.ade la tggl setengah lg..huhu.

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Owh My Hour-Glass Body :D

2011-08-22T21:03:00.000-07:00

Wah sekarang ni sejak sibuk membuat kerja seperti accountant and admin (keje yang xmsuk dalam jobscope!!!!)...asyik duduk aje...maka my hour-glass figure (owh perasan) telah hampir menjadi seperti...eh belum lg tong drum ok...masih hour-tapi hour glass yang besarrr...hahahhaha...

My colleagues and I tengah betting sapa yang paling banyak boleh kurangkan berat badan within 1 month. So tinggal lagi 4 hari je due date. But rasenye baru turun 1-2kg je..haha...puasa-puasa jugak. Makan-makan jugak. Rasenya makan tu lebih dari masa bukan puasa. Mane taknya, dengan excited buat kek, puding, nasi berlauk-lauk..n sebagainya. Bangun sahur makan nasi, lepas makan tido...bukak puasa nasi lagi. Time lauk sedap dari suku pinggan jadi 2-3 kali suku pinggan. Aduiii...

So, tadi browse2 Yahoo! updates..jumpa satu article bertajuk 9 WAYS TO FLATTEN YOUR BELLY IN ONE WEEK!!! Excited tak terkata punya baca artikel ni. Yahoo! updates ni banyak info pasal beauty, technology, global issue and macam2 lah. So, sempena raya pun lagi seminggu. And memang tngah try untuk flatten my belly yg macam dah ade anak 1-2....and ade plak bju kebaya yang teringin nak dipakai di hari raya...so nak try lah tips2 tu..

So , here I would like to share the tips to flatten your belly sebelum raya!

1. Ce try kurangkan atau replace perasa makanan anda yang menggunakan garam. Adui susahkan?!!..Frozen food pun kalau boleh elakkan (seperti pizza segera). Ini kerana, makanan camtu banyak garam. Mengapa GARAM?!!Sebabnya, garam ni help to retain fluid dalam badan kita. So, kalau berlebihan..tu yang banyak spare tyre tu. Sebab kita ni berat air! So, nak avoid trus memang susah. Sebab makanan kat Malaysia ni memang bergaram. Tawar kan xsedap! So solutionsnye... make sure makanan kite tu jangan kurang sangat garam and jangan lebih garam. Kalau air manis, kira manis2 buah la...

2. Next ialah jauhkan diri dari memakan makanan berkarbohidrat tinggi seperti pasta, nasi and roti and mee and keowteow..and potatoes (Ubi penyebab lemak berlebihan dipunggung dan peha, tak percaya tryla makan banyak2). Nasi memang susah okay sebab tu makanan ruji kita. Nak makan beras kurang kanji, kadang2 tak termampu la nak belikan. Ini kerana, bila kita avoid carbs in our diet, badan kita akan guna carbs extra yang dah lama tersimpan tuuuu dan juga buang excess fluid. So, nak cepat avoid la within one week. Kalau nak maintain, kurangkan la pengambilan karbohidrat seperti yang disyorkan oleh semua Dietitian. Cara2nya, kalau nak makan roti tu, instead of 2 keping, makan sekeping je. My personal suggestion, add protein to your diet to reduce craving for carbs! Makan telur, cheese (low fat), ayam, ikan.

3. Sama macam tips no. 2, kurangkan makanan berkarbohidrat seperti pasta, potatoes, rice and bread. Ini kerana dipercayai, makanan2 ini menghasilkan gas semasa dicerna di dalam usus besar. Gas ni la buat perut buncit!

4. Satu lagi ialah dairy products (milk, yogurt, cheese). Cuba amik yang low-fat version. Ini kerana, ada setengah orang yang lactose intolerance,di mana, lepas makan diorang akan rasa macam berangin, crampled lah cirit lah. Kandungan gula dalam makanan2 ini tidak dapat dicernakan . So, gula berlebihan itu akan diconvert kepada LEMAK!! Begitu juga kepada orang yang lactose tolerance, walaupun ada kelebihan ini, kalau amik dairy products berlebihan (walaupun low-fat, low itu, low ini), memang tak kurus la. Sebab enzim bernama lactose ni tak dapat nak cerna semuaaaanya dalam satu masa...(ada research mengatakan, even makanan tu dilabel low itu, low ini, tapi tak semestinya boleh amik berlebihan sebab sometimes, ramuan tu tak dibuang terus, tapi digantikan dengan ramuan yang lain yang hampir sama, and risiko untuk gemuk lagi tinggi!)

5. Buah-buahan ni bagus untuk kesihatan...tapi tak semua buah boleh tolong kite kempiskan perut. Sila makan buah-buahan seperti berries, citrus, grapes. Ini kerana buah-buahan ini mengandungi gula yang ratio hampir sama dengan fructose and glucose yang senang dicerna. Buah-buahan seperti honeydew, apples, pears mengandungi high fructose! So susahla sikit nak cerna. Boleh juga ambil canned fruits seperti jus asli and small portions of dried fruits like raisins and dried plums.

6. Kurangkan pengambilan HOT SAUCE seperti tobasco (jarang gune), barbeque sauce (jarang jugak) and garlic sauce... Ini kerana makanan berpedas akan stimulate acid di dalam perut dan menyebabkan irritation. So, makan pedas buleh tapi jangan pedas berlebihan or jangan selalu.

7. Avoid juga makanan diet yang kononnya low-carbs, low-calorie and semua low. Sebab kadang2 ia mengandungi gula alkohol yang juga boleh menyebabkan penghasilan gas dalam usus. Maka buncitlah perut.

8. Last sekali...buat aktiviti setiap hari. Jangan dudukkkk aje..jogging ke, window shopping ke.At least berjalan2 la sikit lepas makan. Ade research mengatakan dengan buat aktiviti2 seperti ini, heart rate kita and breathing akan stimulate natural contraction dekat usus. So, ini akan membantu untuk clearkan gas2 yang telah dihasilkan dari proses pencernaan makanan.

Untuk keterangan lebih lanjut sila rujuk artikel tu - 9 ways to flatten your belly in one week

Selamat mengempiskan perut!

Choco Moist Nyum Nyummmmm

2011-08-15T06:04:00.000-07:00

Counting days before Hari Raya Aidilfitri....mesti ada yang tengah sibuk2 cari resepi kek n biskut...ade jgak yang sibuk2 browse kek n biskut yang nak dibeli...hahahhaa....

Anyway...I would like to share with u guys one of my favorite cake - Chocolate Moist Cake...yumm...dulu selalu bli tepung instant je....tapi still xjd semoist mana...but sekarang ni dah ade penyelesaiannya..cewah....recently I tried one of recipe from the internet....hasil pencarian my cousin n I...for the very first time...kek nye moist sekali...di tambah topping yang ala2 sticky chocolate gitu...huhu..so inilah resepi rahsianya....

Ramuan Rahsia

2 cawan tepung (I prefer tepung naik sendiri sebab itu je yang selalu ade dlm almari..hehe)
1 1/2 cawan gula kastor
1 tsp garam (selalu buat kek jarang bubuh garam....tapi xtaula kalau xbubuh ape jd)
1 tsp baking powder (orang kate kalau pakai self-raising flour xpyah bubuh ni..tp aritu try xbuh die tak naik sgt..so better bubuh ok)
2 tsp. baking soda (yang ni pun xbubuh aritu sebab xde..tp jd je..tklau xbubuh sila gantikan dgn tepung (2 tsp))
3/4 cawan cocoa powder
1 cawan minyak jagung (minyak kelapa sawit pun boleh...jadi elok ja)
1 cawan susu (nak gantikan dgn chocolate milk pun ok)
2 biji telur grade A (kalau grade B - 3 biji)
1 tsp. vanilla essence

1 cawan kopi panas (tanpa gula)

Cara-caranya ialah...

Ikut resepi masukkan semuanya sekali dalam mixer...tapi selalunya I will mix oil and sugar dlu..then baru masukkan telur satu2.vanilla essence..then masukkan campuran tepung (flour+cocoa powder+baking soda+baking powder+salt) dan susu tu secara berselang seli....kacau hingga sebati....last sekali baru masukkan kopi panas (inilah punca kek tu jd moist!) tu...kacau2 kejap....then masukkan dalam ketuhar bersuhu 180*C selama 30 min untuk pan bersaiz 9" x 13"...

Resepi ni nak buat cupcake pun boleh..so untuk bakar kalaau cupcake size besar 18min..sederhana 15min..kecik 10-12min....

Inilah hasilnya.... :)

Happy baking!!!

Blogger Droid

2011-08-14T23:31:00.001-07:00

Testing.....apps ni byk iklan lucahla. ..rse2 apps ni bleh mngundang virus x kt hp?

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Mood malas keje

2011-08-09T01:10:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...

Bulan puasa...2nd day for me..haha...anyway...sejak beberapa bulan lepas...semakin malas nk keje..hmmm....buat la jgak skit2...tp xsmgt sgt...maybe sebab rasa tak dihargai kut...yelah...kerja separuh nyawa...multitasking....tp boss tgok gitu-gitu jer..tolong setelkan keje orang2 yg dah resign...kate kasarnye..tolong sapu taik la kan...hmmm....smp bila la nk setel...malang sungguh nasib keje company besar tapi tak sayang employee...nasebla aku ni xbrpe lucky utk dpt offer best2...kalaulah dapat....sure i say bye2...lepas tu keje yg xsetel2 lagi tu biar je....baru hangpa tau....carila orang lain yg bleh setel keje2 busuk ni...hmmmmm...ntahla...

Psst: Mengeluh di bulan puasa kurang pahala..tp nk wat cmne kan..realiti...

Hold my breath...

2011-07-02T19:52:00.000-07:00

Almost everyday I'm waking up and thinking what exactly I want in this life and what exactly I'm looking for. I've been wasting half of my life searching and hoping for something that I'm not sure of. I always thought I was right, even though I knew it was wrong. I felt empty, even though my heart was full. I felt loosing, even though I won. I made mistakes as everyone did. I made wrong decisions as everyone did. I just don't know how to start a new beginning where I should have start years ago. I just don't know how to let go what I should have let go years ago. I just don't know....

Goodbye....

2011-06-17T10:45:00.000-07:00

Truth is always hurt....but not knowing the truth is even worst....

I'm glad to be 'stupid and hurt' rather than 'regret and hurt'.....

Thank you for hurting me this way....

You don't even deserve to be happy at all....

Goodbye.....

Lagu lagi...

2011-06-15T06:50:00.001-07:00

NORA ELENA...currently following this drama series..not bad...Seth damn sweet... :D

Sedangku membaca wajahmu
Senyumanmu menggambarkan sesuatu
Jika kau fahami isi hatiku
Ku tak ingin waktu henti tanpamu

Dirimu menyalahkan sebuah erti
Tapi diriku masih terhenti di sini
Dan jalanku masih belum dapat ku pasti
Namun diriku masih terhenti di sini

Andai kau dapat memahami
Bahawa ku menangung semua ini
Bukan niatku ingin kau pergi
kerna ku masih terhenti di sini

Dirimu menyalahkan sebuah erti
Tapi diriku masih terhenti di sini
Dan jalanku masih belum dapat ku pasti
Namun diriku masih terhenti di sini

Tiada daya untuk ku lakukannya
Kau tiba, di waktu ku masih punyai cinta
Tiada daya untuk ku lakukannya
Kau tiba, di waktu ku masih punyai cinta

Dirimu menyalahkan sebuah erti
Tapi diriku masih terhenti di sini
Dan jalanku masih belum dapat ku pasti
Namun diriku masih terhenti di sini

Tiada daya untuk ku lakukannya
Kau tiba, di waktu ku masih punyai cinta
Tiada daya untuk ku lakukannya
Kau tiba, di waktu ku masih punyai cinta

Mari menyanyi...

2011-06-09T22:34:00.000-07:00

I love to post music that keep on playing in my head. So, today would like to share the recent song that keep on playing in my head & even become my ringtone...
One nice song from Adele....tapi dalam video clip die duduk all the way..malas kut....or tak larat sebab banyak guna strength untuk nyanyi lagu ni...

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark,

Finally, I can see you crystal clear,
Go ahead and sell me out and a I'll lay your ship bare,
See how I'll leave with every piece of you,
Don't underestimate the things that I will do,

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,

The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling,

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

Baby, I have no story to be told,
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair,
Make a home down there as mine sure won't be shared,

The scars of your love remind me of us,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
I can't help feeling,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),

And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

Could have had it all,
Rolling in the deep,
You had my heart inside your hand,
But you played it with a beating,

Throw your soul through every open door,
Count your blessings to find what you look for,
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold,
You'll pay me back in kind and reap just what you've sown,

(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
We could have had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
It all, it all, it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

Could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),

But you played it,
You played it,
You played it,
You played it to the beat.

2011 Wishlist....

2011-06-07T04:34:00.000-07:00

Hope it's not to late to list down my wishlist for 2011 (err....xdela wajib untuk list down pun kan)...since it's already mid year...so I also update the status (cam wat report plak..)...

To complete my master course - by right sempat..but disebabkan terlalu banyak commitment kat Motorola..I'm gonna let go my first wishlist for next 2012...
To slim down - ohooo....so far stable...tak tambah tak turun..hahahaha..
To find a better place to stay - done...haha....I'm travelling from PB-PG...there is no other place like home :)
To find happiness - in progress....
NAIK GAJI at least 20% - wah...sungguh tinggi impian...naik 7% je....anyway Alhamdulillah for the wealth....
To buy a house - masih lagi bermimpi...
To change my car - ooo...mimpi di siang hari....saya masih setia dgn cik Viva (defend diri supaya tak kecewa)
To find the answer - da dapat dah and still satisfied with it...
To put away the memories - in progress....
To have bigger savings - huh....travel aje kejenya....walaupun ke KL n Melaka je...klu da sblan 2 3 4 kali....mne nak menyimpannya...but dptla 1% dr annual gross earnings...hahahhaa
To get whatever I wish for apart from the 10 wishes listed above - nak list down lg banyak ooo...but since 2011...11 ckup la...

Mid of 2011

2011-06-06T04:45:00.000-07:00

6/6/11....Looking for something to fill up the holes in my life...

Happy Birthday dear...xoxo

2011-06-04T00:01:00.000-07:00

Say Hello To Goodbye.....

2011-05-31T07:08:00.000-07:00

Some histories should not be forgotten but definitely should not be remembered. And sometimes, it is better to forget it all....

Hey there stranger, how you bin'
Feels like i'm standing on the outside looking in
at the mess we left behind
And it's a long way to fall
I gave you everything I had
I gave it all
And then my heart was on the line

I can't hate you
any longer
I know i'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let it go.

Say hello to goodbye, cuse its gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cuse, that was there and only then.

Say hello to goodbye
Say hello..

And this is how it has to be
Cuse' its a deadly combination, you and me
You know its undeniable
Even though we tried it all
We brought the worst out in each other
I recall
We can't act it anymore

What doesn't kill you
It makes you stronger
And though i'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let you go

Say hello to good-bye
Its gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cuse, that was there and only then.

Say hello to goodbye
Say hello..

And even though the tears will dry
I can't completely disconnect
Couldn't make the compromise
Didn't have a safety net

Say hello to goodbye
heeey ya ya

Say hello, goodbye

Say hello to good-bye
Its gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cuse, that was there and only then.

Say hello, to goodbye
Say hello, to goodbye
Say hello, hello

by Shontelle - Say Hello To Goodbye

Life oooh life...

2011-04-19T06:41:00.000-07:00

Satu persatu telah kuhapus
Cerita lalu di antara engkau dan aku
Dua hati ini pernah percaya
Seribu mimpi tanpa ragu tanpa curiga

Reff:
Ku tak ingin lagi
Menunggu, menanti
Harapan tuk hidupkan cinta yang telah mati
Ku tak ingin coba
Hanya tuk kecewa (Ku telah kecewa)
Lelah ku bersenyum lelah ku bersandiwara
Aku ingin pergi
Dan berganti hati

Satu persatu telah kuhapus
Nada dan lagu yang dulu kucipta untukmu
Rasa yang dulu pernah ada
Kini berdebu terbelenggu dusta dan noda

Back to Reff:

Kini ku sadari diri ini
Ingin berganti hati
Cinta yang tlah pergi
Harus berganti hati

Harus ku ganti hatiku kini
Ini harus ku ganti
Tak perlu ini lagi harus berganti…

Apa itu 2011 kepada saya?

2011-02-06T06:10:00.000-08:00

Jawapannya: Serabut..

Tak tercontrol plak sumenye.....start 2011 dgn perasaan yg sgt tak best.. :(

Few reasons why....

Study:

Subject this semester boring....class jauuuh dr parking...class xbest....lecturer xbest... T-T xsmgat langsunggggggggggg...result aritu okayla..berbaloi la jgk dgn usaha yg xseberapa tu...Alhamdulillah...

Work:

Audit datang lagi...ohoiii....banyak benda da kucar kacir dlm office tu...matila aku...byk bnda nk kena start...tp...xbergerak pun...bukan malas...walaupun memang malas...sebenarnya aku penat....penat ngadap rakyat M tu...hmmm...korang wat life aku miserable..

Life:

Jubli Perak okay this year..da ade uban.....tu je mampu di ucapkan...

Family:

Rindu la kt Apit...nseb dia balik May ni..jgn lupe beli barang aku k! Qawi SPM....hope cemerlang cam Apit...

Errr....da lupe tulis diari plak...sekian...

Trusting our intuition often saves us from disaster

2010-08-19T08:17:00.000-07:00

‎"Trusting our intuition often saves us from disaster." - Anne Wilson Schaef

Difficulties...Everyone may have their own difficulties. Various in every way...Mine more towards my job task & my study. My boss & my colleague resigned right after the BIG AUDIT that SUFFERED my life. Taking a big step to further my study in UM which COST my shopoholic life :(. Due to these, I've been doing the ONE LADY SHOW for 2 months now & travelling to KL every weekend....HECTIC may best describe my current life. Hope it will get better soon....There must be something more....

Something More - Secondhand Serenade

I lie awake again, my bodies feeling paralysed
I can’t remember when
I didn’t live through this disguise
The words you said to me
They couldn’t set me free

Im stuck here in this life i didn’t ask for
There must be something more,
Do we know what we’re fighting for?

Breathe in breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store

Breathe in breathe out

The storm is rolling in
The thunders loud it hurts my ears

Im paying for my sins
And its gunna rain for years and years

I fooled everyone and now what will i become?
I have to start this over
I have to start this over

There must be something more,
Do we know what we’re fighting for?

Breathe in breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store

Breathe in breathe out

I fooled everyone and now what will i become?
I have to start this over
I have to start this over

There must be something more,
Do we know what we’re fighting for?

Breathe in breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store

Breathe in breathe out
There must be something more
Breathe in breathe out
There must be something more

Sunday morning....

2010-06-05T18:39:00.000-07:00

People with blind eyes use their other greatest gift to live their lives..So, people with blind heart please use ur other greatest gift which we call it B.R.A.I.N....

I knew it..

2010-05-30T07:19:00.001-07:00

So dissapointed with you dear... I thought you're strong enough....I was wrong...

Hope you're happy with what you're doing....

What is PERFECT anyway...

2010-03-21T01:04:00.000-07:00

Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face
Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder
How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet
Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud
I'll live for you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem ...... why are you crying
Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are if you're perfect

Would you be happier than yesterday?

2010-03-08T21:46:00.000-08:00

Orange K Elias "When we are dreaming alone it is only a dream. When we are dreaming with others, it is the beginning of reality." - DOM HELDER CAMARA

Taken from my Facebok status this morning. I've been through a lot of emotional dramas in my recent years. So this year, I promised myself not to get hurt (mission impossible). So, I'm taking good care of my heart and make sure that it is happy. Happy thoughts brings happy heart. So...I keep on thinking the positive side more these days. As like what my frens said I see the glass half full. By the way, this entry not to talk about my heart....huhu...I found another intresting article from Yahoo! that I would like to share with you. BE HAPPY!

4 SIMPLE SECRETS TO FEELING HAPPIER EVERY DAY

by Lucy Danziger

Do you wish you could spend more of your days feeling fulfilled? Or wonder why you aren’t happier, despite all that’s good in your life? If you let slip-ups or criticisms nag you, replaying them as a negative inner monologue long after the snafu has passed, you are in fact like everyone else, at least most women I know.

I have news that really will put a smile on your face. You can significantly increase your level of happiness—without being granted a surprise inheritance or an elusive 25th hour in every day—by adopting new ways of thinking. You see, while about 50 percent of our happiness quotient is determined by what researchers call our natural “set point” for happiness, and 10 percent depends on the circumstances of our lives, a whopping 40 percent is entirely up to you—the way you react to events, cope with stress, choose to spend your time and more.

The fact that we can influence nearly half of our contentment is huge, and realizing the role we can all play in boosting our joy spurred me to team up withSELF’s mental-health expert, Catherine Birndorf, M.D., to write our new book,The Nine Rooms of Happiness (Voice). What we’ve found: By changing your approach to certain situations, you can make your inner voice more positive, enjoy your passion (whether it be gardening, an active lifestyle or traveling) and find a sense of purpose which helps you be happier in each of the “rooms” of your emotional house. (We use the metaphor of your life as a house to allow you to see different areas of your life as rooms: The bedroom for romance, the office for work and money issues, the living room for friendships, etc.)

Just like anything else worthwhile—your health, your financial security—improving your happiness is a matter of making tiny tweaks in your decision making that have big, long-term payoffs you will be thrilled with later. Make these 4 habits a regular part of your day to reap more fulfillment, today and every day.

1. Too much of a good thing is a bad thing

The airlines have it right when they tell you in case of emergency, put your own oxygen mask on before you help the person next to you. It’s not selfish, it’s self-preservation. The same is true when it comes to caring for all those around you in your daily life. Yes, it’s wonderful to be giving, especially with your time, but at a certain point you can give too much of yourself, and then it’s just depleting and you’re no good to anyone.

When you get to this point, you need to learn to say no to the next person who asks you to chair another school benefit. You can also ask for help from your spouse, your best pal or your child’s friend’s mother in sharing carpooling duties, for instance. You’ll have more opportunities to pursue your own interests and nurture facets of your personality that make you happier, and then you’ll be more of a giver when you have the energy again.

So whether it’s signing up for a local extension course, getting outside for a walk after dinner, taking a morning swim, reading on your porch or doing whatever else it is that turns you on and replenishes you, you’ll feel less overwhelmed by too many “have tos” with more “want tos” in your week. Think of it this way: You have to be strong to help others. Taking care of your inner self is as important as taking care of your outer self. Know your limits, and be happy to be healthy.

2. Now is the moment! Enjoy it!

I remember when I was a child, enjoying long, luxurious afternoons with pals in the playground while my mother and her friends watched us. We had hours to explore every inch of the place and it felt freeing. I think of those as perfect moments of my childhood. But when it came time to take my own kids to the playground, I was always rushing them to and fro. I thought to myself: What will they remember? Me saying “Hurry up!” on the way to the park.

My daughter, especially, loved to dillydally, and now I understand that for her, pausing on the street to stoop down and watch a caterpillar was more interesting than being at the swings. I had to slow down, too, and say: My memories of the playground may play like a movie on the screen in my mind, but her movie will be of this, the “fuzzy wuzzy” she helped to safety. My thinking had to change from "Get to the playground to have fun!" to "Have fun here, or wherever you may be." This is it. Now is the moment. Enjoy it! Connect. This could be another perfect moment, for her, if you let it be.

3. Find your “mouse hole!”

No matter how much of a people person you are, everyone needs some moments alone each day to recharge. (Think about it: Even your phone gets to recharge!) Time is the one gift you can give yourself each day to be happier and ward off a bad mood, and it doesn’t cost a thing (or require you to go anywhere). However, when you’re living with roommates or raising kids or inundated with more work than ever and fewer hours to do it in, claiming time and space to yourself can seem like an impossibility. Fortunately, you don’t need to jet off to a palm-tree-dotted island (though that would be nice) or even sleep in the guest room (also tempting sometimes) to get that precious time alone.

When my daughter was 3, she used to crawl into her “mouse hole,” the tiny space under the platform of the plastic slide in her room, and drag a picture book or stuffed animals in and play by herself. She told me, “You can’t come in; it’s a mouse hole and only I fit inside.” The wisdom was clear: Even a kid needs time and personal space to herself, to block out the world and think.

I generally find my time and space when I am swimming or jogging, away from it all. Think of where you feel most relaxed, whether it’s at a local coffeehouse, or even just folding laundry in an unhurried way. Find those peaceful sojourns, banish all the worries and think about the big picture of what makes you happy. The important thing is to try to figure out what that is and then make more time for it in your life, whether it’s being in nature, sharing experiences with the ones you love, or helping others find their emotional satisfaction.

Whatever it is, you’ll feel better just thinking about it. After this mini-break, I guarantee you’ll feel better and more grateful when you get back to the hustle and bustle of your emotional “house” and your busy life there.

4. Conflict can be OK!

This is something we all need to learn. When a friend is mad at you, or you at them (or you are not agreeing with a coworker about the best approach to a project), the hardest thing sometimes is to call the person up and talk about it. But once you do, you always feel better. Chances are, the thing you disagree over is minor, and you have more in common than not, but you need to discuss the situation to find out where you agree and where you don’t.

Call your pal and arrange to get together to talk. Tell her she means so much to you and you want to get beyond this stumbling block, and hear her out; then tell her your point of view. Rather than assign blame, let her know you’re sorry for the hurt you caused, or explain that you feel hurt.

Connecting, especially with friends, is important to your happiness long-term, studies show. While you don’t need to overlap completely to have a lot in common (and a lot of fun together), you do need to communicate and get past the little disagreements. Find the overlap and learn from each other, celebrate your differences and laugh about them, too. You can say to yourself: It’s not a case of either/or but both/and, since it’s not either we agree on everything or we can’t be friends. We can both be pals and disagree in one area. We can have conflict in one area, yet still be friends forever. Conflict is healthy. In fact it’s part of life.

Dan lagi~

2010-03-02T08:19:00.000-08:00

Hmm.....senang2 kau pergi...senang2 kau datang.....

Hmmm...

2010-02-28T01:01:00.000-08:00

Kenapa masih mencari? Aku tak perlukan kau lagi....Please go....

Diet oh diet

2010-02-27T04:45:00.000-08:00

I spent 5 months to loose 5 kg.....but it takes 1 month to gain 3 kg....huuu...sia-sia sudah.....

I admit....I ate too much fast food...hmmm...I spoiled my tummy too much...need to stop this habit..

By the way...I found this article in one of the famous search engine - YAHOO!....Below are the excuses from their diet failure..

8 Diet Downfalls and Solutions

Learn how to stop sabotaging your efforts to lose weight and get advice on healthy snacking.

PROBLEM: I like a big bowl of cereal in the morning.
SOLUTION: Your first course of action is to make sure you're eating a low-glycemic load (GL) cereal, such as Raisin Bran, All-Bran, or Bran Flakes, or at least a medium-glycemic load type like Kellogg's Special K. The glycemic load accounts for how fast the sugar in a food is converted to blood sugar and the dose of sugar in the food.

If you're not used to these cereals, mix them with a bit of your usual cereal at first to make the transition easier. Second, pour less into the bowl and add something else to fill it up. You can top your cereal with fresh fruit, like chopped apples, strawberries, or blueberries. Adding a tablespoon of chopped nuts is an excellent strategy because nuts add protein and "good" fat, both of which help stabilize your blood sugar and keep you feeling full.

PLUS: 19 Weight Loss Secrets From Around the World

PROBLEM: I don't eat breakfast until I get to work, and then there's not much to choose from except bagels or muffins.
SOLUTION: Pack your breakfast in an insulated lunch bag the night before so you can grab it on the way out of the house. A fine breakfast is a piece of fruit, a plastic bag with a small handful of nuts, and 8 ounces (250 ml) of low-fat yogurt. Or make a batch of healthy bran muffins over the weekend and grab one along with an orange. Another option: Keep a box of high-fiber, low-GL breakfast cereal (along with plastic spoons and bowls) at your desk, and bring the milk (in a Thermos), fruit, and nuts with you.

©2010 Jupiterimages Corporation

PLUS: 6 Easy Ways to Follow the Mediterranean Diet

PROBLEM: I like sweet drinks, not water.
SOLUTION: That's okay. But think of these drinks, whether they're soft drinks, sweetened iced tea, or sugary fruit drinks, as a treat, like dessert. You wouldn't eat dessert more than once a day, so don't indulge in these drinks more often than that either. Wait until the afternoon and then get the smallest size you can find. In the meantime, cultivate another habit -- sipping sparkling water. Some flavored varieties have few or no calories, and a good squeeze of lemon or lime juice makes plain sparkling water much more interesting and palatable. Buy seltzer or mineral water in bulk and make sure there's plenty at home and at the office. Changing this one habit can be a really effective way of improving your diet and even losing weight.

PLUS: 10 Ways to Practice Proper Portion Control

PROBLEM: There's no place to get a healthy lunch near my office.
SOLUTION: One strategy is to think through what changes would make it easier for you to bring lunch from home. If you're lucky, your office has a refrigerator, a microwave, or even a toaster oven. If so, get into the habit of making more of whatever you're having for dinner, then pack up the leftovers for lunch the next day. If there's no fridge, pack your lunch in a small insulated lunch bag with an ice pack. It will stay cold through lunchtime.

PROBLEM: I like pizza. Is that so bad?
SOLUTION: The devil is in the details. The thicker the crust -- especially Sicilian -- the higher the GL of the meal. If you add pepperoni, you really sabotage yourself with extra calories and saturated fat, which contributes to insulin resistance. So think healthier pizza: thin crust with veggies on top. Go for whole wheat crust if it's available. Stick with one or two slices. Add a salad with vinaigrette dressing so you get enough food to feel full; the vinegar in the dressing will also help lower the GL of the meal. And make the soft drink a small one or, better yet, have sparkling water.

PLUS: 7 Tricks to Drop Pounds

PROBLEM: When I get salad from the salad bar, I usually load it with cheese, croutons, and creamy dressing. Is it still good for me?
SOLUTION: You might as well eat a hamburger with a side of lettuce. Full-fat cheeses and creamy dressings are high in saturated fat, which is bad for insulin sensitivity. They and the croutons (which are fried) are also loaded with calories. Don't abandon salads, just look for ways to keep them interesting and healthy. Add toasted sunflower seeds for crunch (and healthy fat) or a few black olives for richness (and again, "good" fat). Add hot peppers, if you like them, for kick. Throw on some chickpeas for additional texture. Top it all off with a vinegar-based dressing; experiment to find a tasty one you like, such as mustard vinaigrette for extra flavor.

PROBLEM: I am starving at about 3:00 in the afternoon, and I eat whatever junk food is in sight.
SOLUTION: If you eat foods for better blood sugar for breakfast and lunch, this won't happen. And that's good, because research shows that when they're really hungry, people can eat as much as twice as much food as they normally would. Snacking itself isn't bad at all, though, so keep healthy snacks on hand (think carrot sticks, apples, low-fat yogurt, a few whole grain crackers and peanut butter, or a handful of peanuts or almonds) to keep the sailing smooth between lunch and dinner.

PLUS: 5 Lunch Makeovers for Better Blood Sugar

PROBLEM: I eat carbs when I'm stressed or anxious.
SOLUTION: A lot of people reach for carbs when they're stressed. (The scientific jury is out as to whether carbs actually help calm you down. The effect may simply be due to a sense of comfort from a familiar food.) There's no quick solution here. The key is to figure out ways to cope other than eating. Practice deep breathing or give yourself a "timeout" by taking a 10-minute stroll, after which the craving should have passed. One of the best ways to deal with anxiety in general is to exercise; even a brisk 20-minute walk can lift your mood and calm you down. Studies show that people who exercise regularly have lower responses to stress than people who don't. You can also practice prevention at the supermarket: Avoid buying simple carbohydrates so they aren't within reach when you want them.

Not yet

2010-01-15T07:24:00.000-08:00

I'm not surprised.
Not everything lasts.
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in.
I talk myself out.
I get all worked up, then I let myself down.

I tried so very hard not to lose it.
I came up with a million excuses.
I thought I thought of every possibility.

And I know someday that it'll all turn out.
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.

Mmmm...

I might have to wait.
I'll never give up.
I guess it's half timing,
And the other half's luck.
Wherever you are.
Whenever it's right.
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazing.
And baby your is gonna change me.
And now I can see every possibility.

Mmmm...

But somehow I know that it'll all turn out.
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And I promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.

They say all's fair.
And in love and war.
But I won't need to fight it.
We'll get it right and,
We'll be united.

And I know that we can be so amazing.
And being in your life is gonna change me.
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmm.

And someday I know it'll all turn out.
And I'll work to work it out.
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get,
Than I get, than I get, than I get.

Ohhh!

You know it'll all turn out.
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And I promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.

I just haven't met you yet.
Ohh, promise you, kid, to give so much than I get.

(I said love, love, love, love...)
I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet.

Aku pun pernah juga...bukan kau sorang...

2009-12-28T14:43:00.000-08:00

Aku pun pernah cintai seseorang..sgt2… aku juga pasang impian dgn dia… tersangat indah…
Aku lakukan apa saja untuk dia….betapa dia menyakiti aku, aku biarkan saja kerna aku tahu dia amat sayangkan aku…
Tapi aku tak sangka, dia sanggup menipu,
dia menduakan aku… tapi dia tak pernah mengaku sehinggalah kami bertemu lagi….
Aku sangka dia masih menunggu aku.. aku mula memasang impian…dia menaburkan janji pada mulanya…tapi …hati aku hancur apabila dia beritahu hatinya telah dimiliki…aku cuba untuk pergi..tidak mahu mengharap lagi….
Di saat aku mula untuk mengecapi bahagia… dia datang kembali….menagih simpati… aku akui aku lemah…dia memberikan aku harapan….dia menaburkan janji….selepas itu aku sering kali terjaga dari mimpi dan cuba untuk pergi…tetapi dia sentiasa mencari aku kembali….katanya dia tak boleh hidup tanpa aku…dia perlukan aku…di mana pun dia berada..dia mahu aku dekat dengannya…orang sekeliling sering menyangka kami masih bersama…memang ia sesuatu yang manis bagi kami…tapi sampai bila?
Suatu hari…dia membuat keputusan untuk pergi….aku tidak menghalang….sedikit pun tidak terniat untuk menghalang…dia pergi tanpa berita…kemudian dia membuat keputusan yang membuat aku sedar dia tak akan kembali lagi….hati aku amat hancur..tersangat-sangat hancur…aku mengambil masa yang lama untuk keluar dari kehancuran..aku cuba bina hidup aku..bina hati aku…seringkali aku dengar dia masih merisik khabar aku..aku cuba kuatkan hati…untuk apa lagi mencari aku? Untuk sakiti aku lagi?
Dan kemudian…setelah sekian lama….dia kembali dengan cara yang lain…untuk menyatakan apa sebenarnya yang terjadi….walau besar mana pun cinta dan sayang yang dia ucapkan pada aku…walau besarnya pengorbanannya untuk membela diri…sedikit pun aku tak peduli….mengapa sekarang? di saat aku memang tak perlukan dia lagi? adakah dengan meluahkan rasa hati akan mengamankan hubungan dia dan orang yang kononnya memiliki hatinya? mengapa mahu libatkan aku lagi? mampukah dia menipu selama-lamanya? mampukah selama-lamanya dia menyatakan tiada cinta, tiada perasaan, tiada rindu selama ini?
Aku mengaku..aku masih cinta…aku masih rindu..tapi perasaan itu aku telah buang jauh….sejauh mana sehingga aku sanggup tidak mempedulikan rayuan kemaafan dari dia..sudahlah..aku berharap dia tidak lagi merisik khabar tentang aku..tidak lagi menghantar sms yang panjang berjela-jela..menelefon berkali-kali..atau mencari aku lagi…aku mahu dia faham…hati aku sangat sakit, hati aku sangat hancur sehingga perasaan belas kasihan aku pada dia langsung tidak wujud….dia memang bukan malaikat..dia tidak layak diagungkan…orang yang suka bermain hati memang tidak layak memiliki cinta… sila pergi….

Buat si dia...

2009-12-25T02:04:00.000-08:00

Hmm...after so long.....why u need to tell me all this now? at this very moment? Nothing else I can say..telling me how much you love me wont change anything.....please go....

Sweet Indulgence

2009-12-14T20:52:00.001-08:00

Huuuu....nampak lazat or horror?

Hahaha...teringin sangat nak buat Checkerboard Cake..but I don't know how. But then..after I bought this cookbook (refer pic on the left)..impian menjadi kenyataan..huhuhu....

The presentation not that nice, but (not to impress myself)..it taste good. Love the sticky chocolate topping.

By the way, the book is worth to buy...

The world is full of suffering, it is also full of overcoming it.

2009-11-22T04:35:00.000-08:00

Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So i say you’ll..

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home
Oh

I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oh

Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
So hear this now

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home

sorry for missing someone that don't deserves it......

Single Girls....

2009-11-02T04:46:00.000-08:00

I think you'd like my new hair
I cut it when you weren't there
that pieces of us everywhere
were falling down

My bed is now a girl's bed
Pink flowers under my head
and pillows on your side instead
of you

'Cause that's what single girls do
don't think about you

I'm reading books on meditation
Praying for my heart's salvation
I've got the motivation
to be a free girl now

I've gone drinking with the guy down the hall
put up a new color on my bare walls
I'm so damn busy
after all

'Cause that's what single girls do
don't think about you

I keep trying
I keep trying
to make my way back to the light where I belong
But God keeps lying
God keeps lying
saying this is for the best and nothing here is wrong

But I"m still thinking about you

I think you'd like my new hair
I cut it like I didn't care
that pieces of me everywhere
were falling down

One more glass of wine
before I turn off the lights
this time I'll be fine
I'll be fine
I'll be fine

This video made me & my cousin (the only single girls in our family at this moment) ternganga...haha...

Menopause....

2009-10-30T02:31:00.000-07:00

Terasa stress bagaikan menopause.......tension...tension....Kelam kabut...ramai suka kalau hari Jumaat sebab esoknya Sabtu n start weekend...but not for me bila bos cakap "K..on Saturday, please assist the vendor to do their work and please do inspections & bla233444"..huh... =(

But...terubat dgn gmba neh yang di tag oleh seorang kawan di FB...the photo that made me smile to ears... =)

Superman vs Wonder Woman

2009-10-29T16:30:00.000-07:00

My Boss said: " Engineers are like Superman"

I said: "I'm not a Superman, I'm a Wonder Woman"

Office Mode

2009-10-22T05:37:00.000-07:00

Stress all day...working under the sun...da la penat.....

menunggu orang wat keje...lepas tu buleh plak kene bleter ngn pkcik bwak lori.."Adik..mane buleh buat baja dari pokok2..bukan organik pun"....huh...I don't want to argue...couz it would be unfair to him to be scold by me bcoz if I did he wouldn't understand pun...sebab what they think is MONEY!.,,,,never mind...these few weeks I got the wave feeling....~~~~~~~

I'm not really sure why...but there were times where I was damn excited..& then...I was so down..

Last weekend I spent time with my best buddy Bobo & my cousin Anna. We went for a movie, PAPADOM....well...I'm not really into Malay movies..but this movie really touched my heart....to be honest.. I cried.... ='( ...I usually cried on romantic love story...but this time around...a father love..

hmm.....like most of my frens who have watched this movie, it made me really missed my dad...hmm...my old dad...last time before everything broke into pieces....my dad was soooooo uncool.. in term of..."Going out with frens"...."Go for school trip"...."Visit frens house during festive season"...my aunts always said "Jeles dengan anak sendiri"...which mean, he loves me so much that he can't afford to let me out his side. There was one time I was chosen to participate in Taekwando tournament in Cameron Highland to represent my school. At first

, he said "NO!"...only when my PKHEM came to my house to talk to him, then he allowed. It was worth it! I wont Gold medal!!! ....erm to be honest... I won because the opponent pull out... =D haha..

Back to my dad...he didn't allow me to cut my hair or even pierce my ears....If I want to cut my hair, I need to ask permission..then he would say "Satu inchi ja"...aduih...maybe because I am his only girl...when I was away for study, we would talk on phone for almost half an hour.. I

was not so close with my mom back then...hmmm...and now...it'd been 4 yers....and these 4 yers was like nothing I could ever imagine would happen to us....a lot of tears, hurt & pain....the good one is that I'm getting closer with my mom... =) that would be enough I think...no matter what Ayah, I will always love you. Saya tak marah..cuma terkilan...I don't expect you to be like Saadom.

But enough to show that you care.....I really miss what you were 4 yers ago....

Okay....I better stop now before tears start to falling down..huhu..& I need to go off now. I have my Genset's noise & dust monitoring at 10.00pm....NAK BALIK!! xlarat duk office.. =p

"How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?" - Albert Einstein

2009-10-18T09:21:00.000-07:00

I don't have word to describe this quote...................

The Perfect Fan... =)

2009-10-15T09:07:00.000-07:00

Semalam masa browse video clip di YOUTUBE...terjumpa plak vid clip BSB yang baru...huhu...I was sooo excied to watch the clip..but the internet were toooo slow..I need to wait almost an hour for the vid to load....BSB- Backstreet Boys..been following them for more than a decade.....dari sekolah rendah kut...I bought all of their CS/Cassette..sangat taksub! huhu..die-hard fan..my cousin Lea have the same interest...WE'RE IN LOVE WITH THEM...bila pkbalik..banyak kenangan terindah bersama BSB neh...even though they were on the other part of the world..dekat di hati =)

At the age of 22...after being their fans for about 11 years or more..we managed to watch them live in Sunway Lagoon last year...we were sooo damn excited... just like a school girl...hehe.....we don't care what others thought about BSB...WE STILL LOVE THEM!!!

Enjoy their new vid clip from their new album 'This is Us"...

Straight Through My Heart

Dine out with family!

2009-10-11T05:55:00.000-07:00

This evening Mama decided to have dinner outside. My lil bro craving for Pizza Hut. I love Pizza Hut..but not Pizza Hut in my hometown (PB). The service was SUCK!!!!. I have few bad experience every time I went there or order for delivery. But then, as my Maktok pun mau makan pizza. We decided to give Pizza Hut a chance. Maktok went upstairs to change her clothes, she keeps on mumbling "Maktok nak serlum baju buruk ja...bukan sapa nak tengok"..(serlum=pakai)...hehe.

As we reached Pizza Hut, there were almost full. And we took our seat, after about 10 minutes. No one..I repeat..no one come to us even to clear up the dishes on the table! Even the flies have their sweet time. Huh!

I always don't have patient to wait for a BAD service. So, we went off to the new cafe in town. Well, not that new a few months maybe. - STRAWBERY CAFE - is the name of the cafe. The design look alike Secret Recipe with the white color theme & the grey uniform. Never mind, at least this is something new for this small town. =)

I tried their lemon juice & mee hon tomyam soup..erm...not that nice since I'm TOMYAM lover. So, it's not that easy to satisfy me! =p

Mama had ABC & Hawaiian Tuna.

Qawi had Fillet Fish & Blueberry Blended.

Maktok...well she had her favorite Teh Tarik & wedges...

We had a great time eating there... =)

All the single ladies..

2009-10-10T19:41:00.000-07:00

Hi All,

These few days, Yahoo published few interesting articles. Below is the article I got for you guys for today. Khas buat sesiapa yang baru, or da lame putus cinta...hope this will help...

Breakup Recovery 101: Five Rules You Must

Follow!

by StyleCaster, on Tue Oct 6, 2009 1:11pm PDT

Whether or not you were together for two weeks, six months, or four years, breakups hurt. And they can be really hard to get over. If you listen to the wise words of Charlotte on Sex and the City, it takes half the time you were together to get over him. Here are a few more wise words to help make your next breakup a little easier.

Don't Talk to Him

The most crucial rule in breaking up is to not talk to the person you're breaking up with. Even if you think you can handle it and still get over the person, you can't. Don't kid yourself; feelings will get hurt. Take some time off, get over him, and maybe someday in the future you'll be friends. Until then, lick your wounds and recover any way you'd like; whether that be partying hard, staying in bed for days with pints of ice cream, or spending absurd amounts of money on clothes you don't need. No one will say a thing; we all heal in our own, weird ways.

Snap Out of It

Remember how things, like stupid songs and movies and that little spot in the park that you two went to on your first date used to be "yours"? Well, they're not anymore. Don't make a connection to platonic objects when there isn't one. Remind yourself that you like that spot in the park because of the good view, not because of anyone connected to it. There's no point losing more than you have to from a breakup, so don't get all sappy on yourself.

Reconnect with Your Friends

No matter how much you say you're not going to be that girl who gives up her friends for her boyfriend; everyone gives up a little of their time to spend with their guy. Well, now is the time to make it up to them (and, you could use the girl talk). So, go out and have fun; grab your best wing woman, and remember how much fun being single really is.

Take Some Time For Yourself

Amidst all of this trying not to talk to him, hanging out with friends, partying more and/or eating lots and lots of ice cream-you need to remember to sit back and actually work through your feelings. Understand why things went south, and why you're better off this way. And in no time you'll be back to your old self, and what's-his-name will be a thing of the past.

It's All About Rewards

And finally, do all of the little things that make you happy every day. Yep, being single means thinking about you, you, you. So, go and take that extra time after work and buy yourself that little ring you've been obsessing over. Or take a long walk and meet a friend for cupcakes because well, you can. Have fun spoiling yourself, because you deserve it after....wait, what? I'm forgetting already.

Cinta itu ikhlas, ia datang tanpa diundang, ia pergi tanpa dipaksa

oops: Half of the time?! may need another 5 years then,,.. =/

8 Foods That Fight Fat

2009-10-10T02:12:00.000-07:00

Got this interesting article from Yahoo...dedicated to anyone yang nak maintain or kuruskan badan....sila baca...

By Lucy Danziger, SELF Editor-in-Chief - Posted on Thu, Oct 08, 2009.

Want to lose weight as you chow down? Your wish is granted! (I promise, this is no fairy tale.) Your supermarket is filled with foods that studies show have lipid-melting powers to help melt fat and keep you slim. Stock up on these fat-fighting super bites, and you'll be trimmer even as you indulge. Read on to discover the eight foods that deserve a permanent spot in your fridge—and in your diet!

Almonds These yummy nuts are high in alpha-linolenic acid, which can accelerate your metabolism of fats. In fact, dieters who ate 3 ounces of almonds daily slashed their weight and body-mass index by 18 percent, while those who skipped the nuts reduced both numbers less— just 11 percent—a study in the International Journal of Obesity revealed. Chomp almonds à la carte (limit yourself to 12 per serving to keep calories in check). I get a pack at Starbucks and nibble throughout my day. Or sprinkle them into a recipe such as Black Bean–Almond Pesto Chicken. Go nuts!

Berries I tell my daughter, "These are nature's candy!" Turns out they're also your body's best friends. Strawberries, raspberries and other vitamin C–spiked fruit can supercharge your workout, helping you burn up to 30 percent more fat, research from Arizona State University at Mesa has found. If they're not in season, buy the little gems frozen in a bulk-sized bag so you'll always have them on hand to whip up a Berry Bliss Smoothie or Strawberry-Sunflower Pops, regardless of whether berries are in season.

Cinnamon Adding 1/4 teaspoon to your plate may prevent an insulin spike—an uptick that tells your body to store fat. Sprinkle it on your morning cereal or coffee or on your yogurt in the A.M., or savor it in Apple-Cinnamon-Raisin Oatmeal.

Mustard It's heaven on a soft pretzel, but mustard may also be a weight loss wonder. Turmeric, the spice that gives mustard its color, may slow the growth of fat tissues, a study in the journal Endocrinology finds. Use it on sandwiches instead of mayo, or sprinkle turmeric on cauliflower pre-roasting to give it a kick. Try it on tuna salad—I promise it adds zest.

Oranges This citrus fruit, which contains fat-blasting compounds known as flavones, deserves to be your main squeeze. Women who ate the most flavones had a much lower increase in body fat over a 14-year period, a study in The American Journal of Clinical Nutrition notes. Eat oranges sliced or swig fresh OJ (including pulp!) to get the best benefit from the fruit.

Soybeans Reason to toss a half cup on your salad? Soybeans are rich in choline, a compound that blocks the absorption of fat and breaks down fatty deposits. Oh, and they're addictively delish! But if breast cancer runs in your family, experts suggest you should talk to your doc before adding soy to your diet.

Sweet potatoes The colorful spuds' high-fiber content means they keep your insulin steadier than their white sisters, which means less fat packed on your hips, research finds. Top a small baked tater with lowfat cottage cheese for a tempting side dish, or whip up Miso Soup With Sweet Potato Dumplings.

Swiss cheese Calcium-rich foods reduce fat-producing enzymes and increase fat breakdown, and Swiss has more calcium than many of its cheesy peers. Choose the reduced-fat variety, such as Sargento. Slip it into your sandwich, put it on top of high-fiber crackers or use it for a healthier grilled cheese. Yum!

ooops: love oranges & berries...

When You Believe

2009-10-09T08:35:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite song..naik semput aku nyanyi lagu neh kat karoke..huhu..

Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopefull song
We barely understood

Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayers so often prove(s) in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away

Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't (always happen) when you ask
(Oh)
And it's easy to give in to your fears
(Oh...Ohhhh)
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way straight throught the rain
(A small but )still resilient voice
Says (hope is very near)
(Ohhh)

There can be miracles
(Miracles)
When you believe
(Lord, when you believe)
Though hope is frail
(Though hope is frail)
It's hard to kill
(Hard to kill, Ohhh)
Who knows what miracles,you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will(somehow,somehow, somehow)
somehow you will
You will when you believe

You will when you
You will when you believe
Just believe...in your heart
Just believe
You will when you believe~

9/10/09: 11.19pm

2009-10-09T08:16:00.000-07:00

After walking & walking the whole day in office...sambung plak di Queensbay...mencari the perfect gift for Paik Imm...malang tak berbau....Lovely Lace takde di Queensbay...so I ended up buying her a cute card...as an additional..I would giver her some Ang Pau...a few red notes would do...sikit2 cukup...gaji next Friday....feel sooooo damn tired....sakit satu badan...hoping to get a good sleep without mystery caller calling in the middle of the night asking stupid question "Dah tido ke?"..isk2....please la...trick tak kena...

9/10/09: 1.04pm

2009-10-08T21:51:00.000-07:00

Nih macam twitter jugakla update on what's going on...hehe..

9/10/09: 1.04pm

The audit is still going..will end later this evening...

Sangat skema auditor Siam neh...suma nak cek...huhu..

Makan pun nak cepat2..huhu..

Tomorrow ada wedding Paik Imm, my couleague. I'm not sure what to buy her for her wedding. So I asked her, "Paik Imm, you nak ape?"

Then she said "Just buy me picture frame,,"

So, I'm thinking of buying her a nice frame from Lovely Lace. Hope, malam ni tak penat sangat untuk menerjah ke Queensbay..

P/s: I'm still not planning to publish anything to confront because it was funny u see...but let see tonight..

Phew...

2009-10-06T16:15:00.000-07:00

Busy...Tire...Busy...Tired..Owh..please let this week pass by asap!

Ten things about you..yes you...

2009-10-05T08:29:00.000-07:00

Sedang sibuk bertungkus lumus buat preparation untuk audit beberapa hari yang lepas...panggilan dari seorang yang aku gelar sebagai Kawan (BFF) membuat aku tersengih sendiri (xtunjuk gigi sebab ada kata xcntik kan). Sesuatu perkabaran yang tak disangka. Pada mulanya, aku rasa tak perlu aku terangkan tentang segala-galanya...kerna selama ini aku buat tak tahu aje...tapi aku rasa aku perlu terangkan sedikit supaya 'yang berkenaan' dan 'yang tersebut' tidak lagi membuat spekulasi yang boleh membuatkan hati mereka tidak tenang....

Erm....yang pertama

:Tiada satu pun entry di dalam blog ini ditujukan untuk 'yang berkenaan'. Jujur ni. Kecuali entry kali ni jela...khas buat 'yang berkenaan'....tak perlu nak huraikan untuk siapa...kerna biasala dalam kehidupan ini memang ramai lalat2...semut2..anai2 yang agak mengganggu kehidupan seharian kita...oleh yang demikian, harap maklum...

Erm...yang kedua

:Tak sangka 'yang berkenaan' sampai juga disini (tak sure la 'yang berkenaan' memang betul singgah ke sini dan telah bersangka bahawa ada sesuatu ditujukan untuk 'yang berkenaan'). Atau mungkin juga terdetik di hati yang berkenaan untuk menjernihkan keadaan. Tak apalah...jernih ke keruh ke...

Erm...yang ketiga

:Sesungguhnya, pada mulanya aku mahu menjaga hubungan persahabatan kerna aku dan 'yang tersebut' pernah menjadi kawan baik. Aku dan 'yang tersebut' pernah berbual panjang di ruang chatting dan sms mengenai 'yang berkenaan'. Sesungguhnya, aku seronok mendengar 'yang tersebut' bahagia. Aku terus memberi nasihat dan pandangan supaya 'yang tersebut' menjaga 'yang berkenaan' dengan baik, menerima 'yang berkenaan' seadanya dan jangan ulangi apa yang pernah diperlakukan 'yang tersebut' terhadap aku. (Tiada apa yang berlaku okay...maksud aku pabila yang 'yang tersebut' buat aku sedih). Dan aku juga menyarankan 'yang tersebut' untuk membuang segala memori2 seperti gambar yang masih disimpan supaya 'yang berkenaan' tidak tersalah anggap. Dan ada la lagi yang aku sendiri telah lupa, kerna rasanya tak penting kut dan aku takut cerita lain pula timbul. Yang lepas, biarkan ia berlalu. Tak ada sapa nak kenang pun.

Erm...yang keempat

:'Yang berkenaan' seperti menyangka aku masih mengharapkan 'yang tersebut'. Sudahla...sedikit pun tak terdetik di hati. Tak perlu gusar...

Erm..yang kelima

:Mungkin 'yang berkenaan' dan 'yang tersebut' tidak dapat memahami lawak kasar antara aku dan Kawan2 (BFF). Mungkin 'yang berkenaan' dan 'yang tersebut' terlalu sirius memikirkan hal yang kecik. Percayalah, ia hanya sekadar gurauan. Tak perlulah menikam2 lidah, aku bagi satu 'yang berkenaan' bagi 10. Kan da tunjuk diri sebenar. Semua dah besar kan, fikirlah secara matang. Dan tak perlulah huraikan dengan lebih lanjut, tiada siapa pun yang ambil hati.

Erm..yang keenam

:Yang terang lagi bersuluh (tak perlu hurai..sebab nanti panjang sangat edisi kali ini..kalau faham, baguslah..tak faham tak mengapa)

Erm..yang ketujuh

:Ada sesuatu yang aku dengar mengenai kawan aku yang menjadi mangsa sehingga sampai ke pengetahuan keluarga. Entah dari mulut siapa, entah dari mana. Dengan penuh harapan, sudah2la membawa cerita (Dia dah nak kawin kut). Aku tak tahu ia datang dari mana (Aku tak menuduh 'yang berkenaan'..cuma dengar khabarnya dari pihak 'yang berkenaan'. Harap-harap ia memang benar bukan dari 'yang berkenaan' sebab tak sedap bunyinya).

Erm...yang kelapan

:Mengenai kawan-kawan yang lain.Itu antara 'yang tersebut' dengan mereka. Aku tak pernah menghasut mereka. Dan aku tak tahu apa yang berlaku antara mereka dan 'yang tersebut'. Rasanya tiada siapa yang membuang siapa. Tak perlulah salah anggap. Kalau mahu teruskan persahabatan, muncullah menjabat tangan. Aku dan kawan2 (BFF) ada yang tak pernah bertegur sapa dahulu, tetapi menjadi begitu akrab sekarang. Kerna masing2 menonjol diri untuk meneruskan persahabatan. Jadi, fikirkanlah. Hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu dalih.

Erm...yang kesembilan

:Aku juga ingin memohon maaf (alang2 masih di bulan Syawal) terhadap pihak-pihak yang telah tersalah sangka, tersalah anggap, terasa, tersentak,tersedu, terfikir, ter..ter..ter..Sesungguhnya aku tak menganggu orang yang tak menganggu aku. Dan rasanya.. aku tak pernah menganggu 'yang berkenaan'...

Erm..yang kesepuluh

:"One's first step in wisdom is to question everything - and one's last is to come to terms with everything." - Georg C Lichtenberg

"The beginning of wisdom is found in doubting; by doubting we come to the question, and by seeking we may come upon the truth." - Pierre Abelard

Tak perlu bercerita mengenai perkara lepas atau keaiban orang lain, kerna tiada siapa yang sempurna dimuka bumi ini...

Okaylah....cukuplah setakat itu...banyak lagi perkara yang aku perlu fikirkan (seperti keje yang xpenah habis...ribut dan taufan....kehidupan aku) selain dari prasangka prasangka. Tidak perlu berhujah lagi kerna aku sendiri tak tahu apa motifnya...

NOTES: Okay..end of story...we might not be a good fren if we did start in a good way...but at least there would be no issues...At the first place, I did give in a friendship, but apparently you take it in a wrong way...nvm..it doesn't matter at all...have a good life years ahead...

Pagi Sabtu...

2009-10-02T18:51:00.000-07:00

Kepada kamu...

Tak payah la nak show off....ada aku kesah?

Kepada si dia...

Nak apa lagi? Sudah-sudahla....tak payah nak ungkit '10 tahun'....kalau kau sendiri tak hargainya....

Kepada aku...

Setakat semut hitam atau anai-anai tu..pijak aje...

Untuk dia..

2009-09-29T11:10:00.000-07:00

Benarkah salahku, lepaskan kamu
Kau duga egoku, fahami diriku begini
Tiada yang sama
Yang pasti kita semua bebeza
Kau fikirlah

Tiada guna cipta sebuah cerita
Kalau kisah kita sementara
Rasa hati dan langkahmu
Membuat aku keliru

Tiada guna kita menderita
Sungguh semua tidur pun tak lena
Rasa hati dan katamu
Tak lagi seperti dulu

Verse 2
Kita pernah satu, aku dan kamu
Dulu itu dulu, masih di dalam ingatanku
Kini berbeza
Namun masih ku harap kau bersedia
Oo mungkinkah, kau temu bahagia

Lepaskan semua mimpimu
Tangis dan juga sayumu
Kau fikirlah

Tiada guna cipta sebuah cerita
Kalau kisah kita sementara
Rasa hati dan langkahmu
Membuat ku keliru

Tiada guna kita menderita,
Sungguh semua tidur pun tak lena,
Rasa hati dan katamu
Tak lagi seperti dulu

Sungguh semua tidur pun tak lena
Rasa hati dan katamu
Tak lagi seperti dulu

Aku keliru
Aku keliruuuu....

By Aizat

Kesempurnaan....

2009-09-27T03:04:00.000-07:00

Sempurna...Kesempurnaan...menyempurnakan...disempurnakan...

Cinta...menyintai..dicintai...

Wahai Kamu,

Kata kamu; hidup seseorang itu tidak akan sempurna selagi kita tidak dapat melupakan kekecewaan yang lepas.

Tahukah kamu apa maksud sempurna? Apakah kesempurnaan yang kamu maksudkan? Mungkin hanya kamu yang tahu...

Bagi aku...hidup aku cukup sempurna apabila aku mengenali apa itu cinta...

Selama 2 dekad aku hidup..satu dekad bersama dia...cukup mengajar aku apa itu cinta...

1. Cinta itu tak perlu dibuktikan...kerna ia boleh dirasai

2. Cinta itu tak perlu dipaksa....kerna ia pasti akan datang

3. Cinta itu tak semestinya bersatu...cukup sekadar tahu ia wujud antara kita

Kamu mungkin tertawa dengan menyangka hidup aku tidak sempurna...Sadisnya...

Bagaimanakah dia?

Sempurnakah hidup dia dengan keputusannya...

Sempurnakah hidup dia dengan pengorbanannya...

Sempurnakah hidup dia dengan kekecewaannya...

Sempurnakah hidup dia dengan keresahannya...

Aku tak tahu...begitu juga kamu....

Yang aku tahu....

Setiap kali aku pergi..dia pasti mengejar aku untuk kembali...

Dan pada hari itu...buat pertama kalinya, dia yang pergi...tetapi...aku tak pula mengejar...

Apatah lagi bila dia mahu pergi untuk selamanya....sedikit pun tak terdetik di hati aku untuk mengejar dia kembali...

Tanpa disedari, dia pula yang mengejar aku untuk menyempurnakan hidupnya...

Wahai Kamu,

Ini bukanlah satu permainan..dan dia bukanlah trofi kemenangan kamu...(Sesungguhnya kamu belum menang)

Ini bukanlah satu perdebatan...dan ikatan itu bukanlah sebagai bukti...(Ia tidak cukup untuk membuktikannya)

Fikirkanlah..sempurnakah hidup kamu jika hatinya masih menangisi aku....

Cinta

2009-09-25T12:23:00.000-07:00

Cinta itu tak perlu dibuktikan...kerna ia boleh dirasai...

Cinta itu juga tak perlu dipaksa...kerna ia pasti akan datang....

Cinta itu tak semestinya bersatu...cukuplah sekadar tahu ia wujud antara kita...

Maafkan aku..aku tak dapat nak maafkan kau....

RAYA-RAYA.....

2009-09-14T09:47:00.001-07:00

Raya...Raya....Raya just around the corner...My preparation?! Nothing much...
I was soooooo damn busy this whole Ramadhan due to the upcoming OHSA18001 audit. Too many things to be done...however...I tried my very best to enjoy this Puasa & Raya season "sekadar mampu". Since I'll be off for 1 whole week next week...these 2 weeks before Raya was a hectic weeks for me...I have to work on weekends & need to stay back until midnight....and yet I don't think I'm able to finish my work before my long holiday... Hehe...By the way...I still enjoy this beautiful month with activities that routed me out from MOTOROLA!

On the 2nd week of Ramadhan, I went to Shah Alam & Subang to meet my cousins, brother & frens. My 4 days trip was awesome!!
1. Road trip with Yusrina
2. Sahur in uptown with DanDinDun, Mal & Lea
3. Shopping for RAYA!!!!
4. Bukak puasa at Khalid's house in Subang!
5. Karaoke with the Bashariah's Club + Mal

6. Watch Movie (UP) & bukak puasa with Goosip club - Intan & BOBO (I bought Intan a cute yellow bear keychain for her bday)

Something do bothered me during my 'vacation' in Shah Alam. But that's okay... "Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood." - Marie Curie

On the 3rd week, I managed to slip in my schedule on the weekends to do "BISKUT RAYA MARATHON" with mama...we managed to do 4 types of cookies...okayla....

I'm planning to make some cupcakes as I'd promised the twins & my other-half (Lea) this Friday night or Saturday morning...I hope I have enough time to make them...

This Ramadhan really taught me how to be patient, to be strong & control emotions (well I have my own limits)...it was an emotional month for me...."a recovery moment"...I do realize some hearts were broken (so do mine)....but then again...this is life..."Life is just a chance to grow a soul." - A. Powell Davies. Face it!

Already Gone....

2009-09-12T21:43:00.000-07:00

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories, they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high

It never would have worked out right, yeah

We were never meant for do or die...

I didn't want us to burn out

I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop...

I want you to know

It doesn't matter where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder

But I know that you'll find another

That doesn't always make you wanna cry

It started with the perfect kiss then

We could feel the poison set in

"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so

I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know

It doesn't matter where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories, they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye...

I want you to know

It doesn't matter where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on,

So I'm already gone

by Kelly Clarkson

letting you go doen't mean that I have given up......

Quotes of the day

2009-09-07T14:38:00.000-07:00

"In the middle of every difficulty lies opportunity.".

- Albert Einstein -

"One cannot be deeply responsive to the world without being saddened very often."

- Erich Fromm -

My Favorite Song of the Week

2009-09-04T05:10:00.000-07:00

"GOOD GIRLS GO BAD"

I make them good girls go
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
I make them good girls go
Good girls so bad
Good girls go bad

I know your type
(Your type)
You're daddy's little girl
Just take a bite
(One bite)
Let me shake up your world
'Cause just one night couldn't be so wrong
I'm gonna make you lose control

She was so shy
Till I drove her wild

I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go bad
You were hanging in the corner
With your five best friends
You heard that I was trouble
But you couldn't resist
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad

I know your type
(Your type)
Boy, you're dangerous
Yeah, you're that guy
(That guy)
I'd be stupid to trust
But just one night couldn't be so wrong
You make me wanna lose control

She was so shy
Till I drove her wild

I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go bad
I was hanging in the corner
With my five best friends
I heard that you were trouble
But I couldn't resist
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad
Bad bad
Good girls go bad
Bad bad
Good girls go bad

Oh, she got away with the boys in the place
Treat 'em like they don't stand a chance
And he got away with the girls in the back
Acting like they're too hot to dance
Yeah, she got away with the boys in the place
Treat 'em like they don't stand a chance
And he got away with the girls in the back
Acting like they're too hot to dance

I make them good girls go bad
(They don't stand a chance)
I make them good girls go
make them good girls go
The good girls go bad, yeah
Good girls go bad
I was hanging in the corner
With my five best friends
I thought that you were trouble
But I couldn't resist
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad
Bad bad bad
Good girls go bad
Bad bad bad
Good girls go

by Cobra Starship feat. Leighton Meester

Please Don't Leave Me..

2009-08-23T21:04:00.000-07:00

Da da da da, da da da da

Da da da, da da
Da da da, da da

I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many time I've kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
Da da da, da da

I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
But my heart is broken
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Da da da, da da

Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Oh please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I cannot be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I'm sorry
Da da da, da da

Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da, da da
Please, please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)

Baby please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no

You say I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back
It's gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

Please don't leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me
Baby, please, please don't leave me

by Pink

You'd left....

And again....

2009-08-05T08:01:00.000-07:00

Kau kata akulah segalanya,
Yang menyinar mekar di hatimu,
Kau berjanji akulah satu-satunya,
Yang abadi hingga ke akhirnya...

Kau genggam erat tanganku,
Kau sambut cinta suciku,
Kau hias indah hidupku,
Kau beriku bahagia...

Kau pergi dariku,
Sendiri tanpamu,
Mana janji-janjimu,
Untuk setia denganku...

Hatiku terluka,
Dibuai rindu padamu,
Manakah setia yang kau ucap dulu,
Maafkanku jika salahku...

Hulur tanganmu sambut cintaku,
Aku tak sanggup sendiri...

Kembali kasih dalam hidupku,
Cintaku tulus sejati...

Kau pergi dariku,
Sendiri tanpamu,
Mana janji-janjimu,
Untuk berdua denganku...

Hatiku terluka,
Dibuai rindu padamu,
Manakah setia yang kau ucap dulu,
Cintamu bukan untukku...

fOrEvEr fRiEnD

2009-07-28T07:19:00.001-07:00

SOMETIMES IN LIFE, you find a special friend;

Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop;

Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world;

Someone who convinces you that there is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.

This is forever friendship.

When you're down, and the world seems dark & empty;

Your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright & full

Your forever friend gets you through the hand times, the sad times, and the confused times.

If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows.

If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on.

Your forever friend holds your hand and elss you that everything is going to be okay.

And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry.

You have forever friend for life and forever has no end.

You may or may not realize I am your forever friend that you've ever had

Jangan kau lepas...

2009-07-13T04:13:00.000-07:00

Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu

Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah bahagia
Ku takkan pernah merasakannya
Bila kau tak di sini
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah sempurna
Ku takkan pernah merasakanmu
Bila kau tak di sini
oh...

Izinkan aku berlutut mengharap kau tuk kembali
Izinkan aku berharap dirimu kembali
Dan kembali
Dan kembali lagi

Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu
Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu

Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah bahagia
Ku takkan pernah merasakannya
Bila kau tak di sini
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah sempurna
Ku takkan pernah merasakanmu
Bila kau tak di sini
oh..

Izinkan aku berlutut mengharap kau tuk kembali
Izinkan aku berharap dirimu kembali
Dan kembali
Dan kembali lagi

Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu

Aku takkan lepaskan kamu lagi.......waiting for you to come back...

Hanya Ingin Kau Tahu

2009-07-04T11:04:00.000-07:00

Ku telah miliki
Rasa indahnya perihku
Rasa hancurnya harapku
Kau lepas cintaku

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Ow wooo wo wo wooo

Walaupun semua hanya ada dalam mimpiku
Hanya ada dalam anganku
Melewati hidup

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Ow wooo wo wo wooo

by Republik

Wanita..

2009-07-02T07:57:00.000-07:00

Aku wanita punya hati nurani
Yang tak dapat dibohongi
Pabila cinta telah membutakan mata
Dan membuat tuli telinga

Apakah salah jika aku menyinta
Apakah salah jika engkau ternyata
Pilihan hati belahan jiwa ku ini

Cintaku ini anugerah terindah
Dari yang maha kuasa
Cintaku padamu tak pernah berubah
Meskipun kita berbeza

Apakah salah jika aku menyinta
Apakah salah jika engkau ternyata
Pilihan hati belahan jiwa ku ini

Aku wanita aku kaum hawa
Yang memang rapuh hatinya
Aku wanita aku punya cinta
Selayaknya manusia

Apakah salah jika aku menyinta
Apakah salah jika engkau ternyata
Pilihan hati belahan jiwa ku ini

Aku wanita aku kaum hawa
Yang memang rapuh hatinya
Aku wanita aku punya cinta
Selayaknya manusia

Apakah salah jika aku menyinta
Apakah salah jika engkau ternyata
Pilihan hati belahan jiwa ku ini

Ku wanita.....
Yang hanya perlu kau fahami

Aku wanita aku kaum hawa
Yang memang rapuh hatinya
Aku wanita aku punya cinta
Selayaknya manusia

Aku wanita aku kaum hawa
Yang memang rapuh hatinya
Aku wanita aku punya cinta
Selayaknya manusia

Apakah salah jika aku menyinta
Apakah salah jika engkau ternyata
Pilihan hati belahan jiwa ku ini

Wanita....ooo...
Ku wanita.... haaaa....
Wanita....

by Siti Nurhaliza

Bzzzzzz

2009-06-17T03:31:00.001-07:00

Almost 3 weeks here in Penang...

The workload is getting bigger & bigger...

"Baru tau apa itu kerja"as wat Isaid to my frens.

My manager went to KL for the whole week.

She left me with 3 pieces of A4 paper full with list "TO-DOs".

Today is Wednesday. Alhamdulillah I got most of them done & in progress.

There are few things that I have no idea how to get it start.Well, I've send them

emails, but they didn't reply..HIYAA!!!!If I told my manager, she'll probably ask

me to call them... =( I do have problems talking to people esp the BIG one.

I'm afraid they'll ask me for more details & I couldn't provide them. They may

underestimate me then.Kena p public speaking punya course...eh I do get A's

in my degree for that. Need to practice more n more n more to gain confidence!

Living alone with no close frens around was sooo boring. Thank God, my brother

lend me his broadband (Thanks dear, u make ur kakak happy!!!). At least I

can go online everynight to update with my frens (gossiping =p) & also berhibur.

I'm cold & heartless..

2009-06-13T10:30:00.000-07:00

In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless

How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talking to me yo
You need to watch the way you talking to me yo
I mean after all the things that we been through
I mean after all the things we got into
And yo I know some things you things that you ain't told me
Ayo I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna pay me back
You gon' show me
So you walk round like you don't know me
You got them new friends
Well I got homeys
But at the end it's still so lonely

In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless

How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so Dr. Evil
You're bringing out a side of me that I don't know,
I decided we wasn't gonna speak so
Why are up 3 a.m. on the phone,
Why does she be so mad at me for, homey
I don't know she hot and cold,
I won't stop and won't mess my groove up cause I already know how this thing goes,
You run and tell you're friends that you're leavin' me,
They say that they don't see what you see in me,
You wait a couple months then you gone' see,
You'll never find nobody better than me

In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless

How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby lets just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight

Into the night...In the night,
I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told.
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul.
To a woman so heartless...How could you be so heartless?
oh... how could you be so heartless.

P. Buntar-Shah Alam-Besut (The wedding trip)

2009-06-05T07:23:00.000-07:00

Few months ago I was shocked by the news from my ex-coursemate, Siti Khadijah a.k.a Mek (I gave her that nickname =p), that she’s getting married on 31st May 2009. I was looking forward to this wedding since she was one of my good mates in Shah Alam. Her hometown is in Besut, Terengganu…so far meh….nevermind, 2 months before the big day my frens & I planned the wedding trip by tagging our course-mates (in Facebook) on Mek’s picture. Most of everyone responded, however only 7 of us joined the trip;

Topex, Nadiah, Uw, Epi, Akem, K sue & me.

I started my journey to Shah Alam on Friday evening, at 6pm & arrived near 11 at Nadiah’s house after sending my brother to his fren’s home. I didn’t get enough sleep that night since I was soooo tired driving (I’d never drive long distance before). Nadiah & me was sooo lazy to woke up that morning, at 4.00am. We snoozed ourselves till 4.15. We had promised to gather the rest of the team at 4.45 at K Sue’s house in Sek 7, we arrived there almost 5. Okayla…15 mins late only..haha…

We started our journey at 5.30am, our first stop was, Nadiah’s house (she left the camera at home..hiya!). Then after an hour drive we stopped at Genting Sempah (Genting di Sempah as what Akem called it) for our Subuh’s prayer & breakfast.

We continued our journey to Epi’s house in Kuantan to fetch him. Thanks to Epi’s moms who cook delicious food, ketupat sotong & mee condong. They taste yummy!

At 10.30am we continued our journey. It was the first day of school holidays, the roads packed with cars & lorries heading to Pantai Timur. We stopped for lunch at McD’s in Kerteh (cam kat tempat lain xde…hahaha). After that we just stopped for fuel refills until we reached Besut’s town almost 6pm (13 hours on the road!!!! Hiya..penat!).

At Besut’s town, we waited for Mek’s husband, Najib & he guided us to our chalet, Damai Beach Resort. We asked Najib for directions to Mek’s house;

Najib : 20 km dari sini. Umah kawe dekat’ sini, esok pegi denge kawe pun buleh

Uw (saying out loud to me & Nadiah): Die cakap esok bley pegi dengan kawan dia skali!

Nadiah & me was laughing so hard (if you know what he meant). After that, Najib decided to take us to Mek’s house. Only Epi, Uw & Akem followed him. Nadiah, Topex, K sue & me was sooo tired & we rested in our rooms.

At night, we went to Chef’s Restaurant nearby for dinner. We ordered ikan bakar & other side dishes. The food was okay I think, hence everything on the plate lesap because everyone was hungry. After that we went straight back to our chalet & have nice sleep.

At 7.30am,”Don’t say I’m sorry again, it didn’t give u the right….” my phone rang, I opened my eyes & saw Mek’s name on the screen

“Helo, Assalamualaikum” Mek’s voice woke me up.

“Hey Mek,” I sounded sleepy

“Koran tido lagi ke?”

“Tido la penat…13 jam tau”

“Pukul brape nak mari ni?”

“Pukul 9 lebih kut..mandi2 & siap trus pegi la. Ko tengah buat ape?”

“Aku baru nak iron baju”

“Ko tau x..smlam kitorang baru nak mintak pinjam iron ko. Tapi Nadiah cakap, mesti ko kate ko nak gune iron baju pagi nanti”

“Hahahahaha..”she laughed non-stop as always.

“Okayla..nanti kami sampai”

“Okay jmpa nanti” I hang-up.

It’s not even 8 yet. So, Nadiah, K Sue & me went to the beach to take fresh air. Dissapointedly….the beach is not that nice.The beach is not clean since it is not a tourist attraction area. Nevermind, the view (apart from the beach) was beautiful. The sea, the islands nearby, the sky, the fisherman’s boat & the birds in the sky.

After everyone woke up & packed everything, we went straight to Mek’s house. It was easy to find her house since there were posters of the bride & grooms in front of the house. As we arrived, we stood in front of the gate & view the posters.

“Touch up abes, lain gila muka,” Akem commented the poster on the right gate.

Everyone was looking at Akem

“Woi, tu kakak dia la…ada 2 kenduri, kakak dia punya petang. Ni dia gambar dia,” everyone laughed at Akem..hahaha…

Mek’s sister (another bride of the day), welcomed us in. The girls went straight to Mek’s room. Her mak andam was putting make-up on her. While waiting for her to dressed up, the ‘tuan rumah’ invited us to makan first. We were served ‘Gulai Kawah’, fried chicken, really sweeeet ubi keledek & sirap (Epi called it as air oren =p). When everyone was full, we went into the house and take lots of pictures with the bride…

When our mission was accomplished (to attend Mek’s wedding), it was time for us to go back to Shah Alam. We couldn’t wait for her husband, since its already noon & we had looong way to go. On our way back we stopped at few places.

Masjid Terapung for our Zohor’s prayer
Kemaman to buy keropok lekor,sata, otak2 & snack for our picnic & some to bring back home.
Cherating beach for picnic (hard times for the girls especially me because we didn’t change our clothes yet & yes I’m in my tight pink Kota Bharu Kebaya…just imagine….)
Epi’s house to send him & refreshed ourselves.
Genting di Sempah (Akem’s version) for Maghrib’s & Isya’s Prayer

We arrived Shah Alam about 11.00pm. After that, I went to fetch my brothers at Sek 7 & went straight home to Parit Buntar (arrived at 4.00 am & wake up at 5.40 to go to work! PENAT!)

Thanks to:

Mama for lending me money (gaji pending laaaa)

Mak Epi for the delicious ketupat sotong & mee condong

Mek & family for inviting us

The cars "En City & Cik Viva" for the ride...tanpa kamu kami xkemana laa..hehe...

First Week in Motorola

2009-06-04T23:01:00.000-07:00

On 1st June 2009, I’m starting my 3rd jobs; since I became a graduate from UiTM. First day was a tiring day, not because of the work loads obviously (my first day kut). It is because I just got back from my weekend trip >P. Buntar-Shah Alam-Besut<. The EHS department was having an audit by DOSH’s officer for 2 days, on 2nd & 3rd June, so my team-mate were tooooo busy to assist me. However, they made me to read all the documents related to my job scope….boring…hehe..feels like in my ‘school days’…. There were a few differences here in Motorola compare to my previous company;

This factory is smaller & quite pack with people.
We have radio played over the air which is good idea to reduce stress at work place. Music does heal your souls you know.
Everyone has to wear uniform..the batik uniform..it does feel weird..but hey…it’s unique! =)
And many more.. No matter where we are & how the environment is we have to face all the differences with strong motivation..because there are a lot more to come!!! =I

Award from Kak Di...

2009-06-04T22:08:00.000-07:00

1. Copy this award and put it in your blog

2. State 5 interesting facts about the one who gave u the award:

She was my coursemate way back in Shah Alam
She has one sweet mole on her chick…value cannot buy!
The one that can share the hugs…hehe
The owner of the handsome AWAN GULING…she loves him so much!
Owns the titles; Drama Queen & Diva Kontroversi!

3. Then, state 10 facts/hobbies of yours before picking the next award nominees

Single at heart =p
Allergic to cats but love them soooo much!
Can only cook western dish & her favourites locals only like TomYam n ayam masak merah =)….as said by Mr Dan Din Dun in his blog
Loves listening to music & watching movies
Loves taking her own pic…photo-whore (Syeela yang bg title tu!)
Never likes her haircut….suma tak kena!
Loves baking cupcakes & cookies
I don’t have beautiful teeth but yet it is adorable by some people =p
Loves shopping for shoessssss…..beli then tak pakai! Membazir!
I’m the oldest among my siblings but I’m more like the youngest since I’m the only girl & smallest among my brothers…hahaha

4. Choose 10 nominees for this award and describe them

Lea (My lovely cousins)
Affnie (Old frens from Lenggong)
Kak Di (The Drama Queen..the one who tagged me)
Dan Din Dun (Just start blogging)
Puan Is (The hottest lecturer in town)
Afeez (My bro)
Siti Nazira @ Yaya (Sweet frens from Londang)
Amy Ameera (Makeup artist…best of luck in reaching ur dreams!)
Yan (Tauke tudung…check out her blog for online shopping)
You...

Mama

2009-05-11T03:51:00.000-07:00

Mom, you're a wonderful mother,
So gentle, yet so strong.
The many ways you show you care
Always make me feel I belong.

You're patient when I'm foolish;
You give guidance when I ask;
It seems you can do most anything;
You're the master of every task.

You're a dependable source of comfort;
You're my cushion when I fall.
You help in times of trouble;
You support me whenever I call.

I love you more than you know;
You have my total respect.
If I had my choice of mothers,
You'd be the one I'd select!
By Joanna Fuchs

Mama...hanya Tuhan yang tahu penderitaan Mama, kekecewaan Mama...aku hanya mampu melihat dan mendengar....walau apa pun yang Mama lalui...ia membuatkan Mama lebih kuat....kuat dari apa yang mereka fikirkan...biar apa kata mereka...biar apa tanggapan mereka....hanya Mama yang tahu betapa sakitnya dugaan Tuhan.....
For every sweat, for every tears, for every blood...THANK YOU...

I'm 23 & heartless..

2009-05-03T13:56:00.000-07:00

030509...13:56 hours...

H.E.A.R.T.L.E.S.S....

adjective

1. lacking spirit, courage or enthusiasm

2. lacking kidness or feeling; hard & pitiless

This was my status on facebook since last Tuesday (280409). Almost a week past by, yet I'm still heartless. Heartless because of the unpredictable future. Heartless because of the unpredictable feelings. Heartless because I am hopeless...

A thank you note..

2009-04-24T08:32:00.000-07:00

8.32am on April 24th way back in 1986...A baby girl was born.

Being the first child, brought a smile to the parents face & others.

She has gone through lots of ups & downs along the way...happiness...sadness...hopeless...

Now..at the age of 23...she's still not the happiest person on Earth...

But yet she is thankful for what she is now...

Thankful to the life she was given...

Thankful for the endless love & attention she had recieved..

Thank you to:

1. My family; Mama, Ayah, Maktok, Afeez & Qawi:

Thank you for the endless love & support. We might not have a happy family, but I do appreciate all the effort we had done to make us still together as a family. I love you.

2. Wonderful cousins; Lea, Aisyah & Asma':

Growing up with you guys was a wonderful experience. You guys influenced me a lot. I love you so much.

3. Loving friends from hometown; Diana Kamaruddin, Korie, Idalyn, Ieyla, Mawar, Matkhan, Ihsan & Cheah:

Thanks for all those time we had. No matter where you are right now. I will always remember you. Loving you always.

4. Wonderful friends in Lenggong; Buyut, Intan, Dora, Wani, Dibah, Dayah Saidon, DKNY, Isz, Affnie, Eton & Fina:

Friends forever & always. Love you guys.

5. Gorgeous frens in Londang; Syeela, Renee, Effa, Maya, Nad, Syikin, Yan, Yam, Mimi, Amy, Kama & Khai:

Appreciate all those wonderful time we had. Love you.

6. Hilarious friends in Shah Alam; Nadiah, Taufiq, Mek, Aus, Epi, Dayah, K-run, Akeem, K di, K seri, K sue, K As, K Najma, Midgi & K Far:

3 Years being with you guys make the world a better place to live in. Love you & always...

7. Irwan:

A decade knowing you was like a gift from God. We'd been in our ups & downs. And I am thankfull that we still can be bestfrens till now. I love you still...

8. Dan Din Dun:

A goodfriend, a suck bf..hehe...Hope we will always be goodfrens till death do us part. =p

9. Zakril:

I screamed at your face years back then, sorry for that. No matter how life take us right now, I'm glad that we used to be goodfrens. Thank you for 2007.

10.Azwan:

Thank you for lighting up my life after a year in darkness. Eventhough we just knew each other for a year, but it feels like I've known you for life. Hope that we will always be together all years ahead. I love you forever & always. Mwah! xoxoxo

Thanks to each an everyone who I've met in my 23 years of life. You guys made me what I am right now.

Sincerely,

Me

-MEMORIES ARE AS GOOD AS THE PEOPLE WE MAKE THEM WITH-

If only if...

2009-04-10T21:22:00.000-07:00

A touched song by Faizal Tahir....

Cuba kau dengar
Cuba kau cuba
Diam bila ku cuba
Tuk berbicara dengan kamu

Pernahkah kau ada
Bila ku perlu
Tuk meluahkan rasa hati

Dan bila kau bersuara
Setia ku mendengar
Agar tenang kau merasa

Siapa
Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu

Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
Itulah aku…padamu

Cuba kau lihat
Cuba kau cuba
Renung ke mata aku
Bila ku kaku melihatmu

Pernahkah kau ada
Bila ku perlu
Tuk menyatakan rasa sakit
Dalam diri

Dan bila kau perlu
Setia ku menunggu
Agar senang kau merasa

Siapa
Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
Itulah aku…padamu

Maafkan kerana aku tak pernah
Terlintas tuk menulis pada mu
Salahkan ku
Tak mungkin lagi aku meminta
Untuk kau mendengar..
Untuk kau melihat ke mataku

Siapa
Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
itulah aku…padamu

To whom it may concern....love you still...

An ornament

2009-04-07T02:07:00.000-07:00

Tak pernah dengar lagu ni lagi (japgi balik nk try dgr)...n taktau pun lagu ni wujud until my colleague letak lirik ni dekat status IM dia...lirik cam menarik...so I would like to share with sape2 je yg terlintas kt blog ni... An Ornament by Negative

Don't say "I'm sorry" again
It doesn't give you the right
To be someone else
I would be pleased to love and share
But inside I'm locked
I can't even cry
Love only matters
When it comes to the end
Love only matters
Makes you rise again
I'm just an ornament
An ornament to your face
Not enough but it feels right
You keep me alive
When you hold me tight
Both ends are burning fast
Would you stand by me
When things are getting bad
And the colours here will fade
Would you help me see
Real shades of grey
Love only matters
When it comes to the end
Love only matters
Makes me rise again
I'm just an ornament
An ornament to your face
Not enough but it feels right
You keep me alive
When you hold me tight
I'm just an ornament
An ornament in your garden
Not enough but it feels right
You keep me alive
When you bring the rain, rain, rain
Read between the lines
This is fragile only for you and I
All I want is that you love me
As I am

Don't say "I'm sorry" again
Does it give you the right
To be someone else
Someone else
Someone else

Kalaulah...

2009-03-22T19:06:00.000-07:00

Kadang-kadang..dicelah2 kebahagian...ada suatu masa tu
kita akan rasa jiwa kita kosong sangat..kita tertanya-tanya
KENAPA?? BAGAIMANA?? SIAPA??

Betul kata orang...hidup macam roda..kejap kita di atas, kejap di bawah.
Kadang2 kat kiri..kadang2 kat kanan...

Pada suatu masa tu, kita selalu fikir kita dah lakukan yang terbaik untuk diri kita.
Tapi kadang2, kita sendiri yang menyesal dan berkata "KALAULAH..."

Terlajak perahu boleh berundur, terlajak perbuatan...............

Katy Perry

2009-03-17T19:18:00.000-07:00

I love this song...even though it sounds like "Cam malas nak nyanyi", as wat my bro said...And I'm surprise to see the cute guy in KYLE XY (Kyle himself) in this video...I did follow the series & amazed with his cute eyes...such a babyface... Katy Perry is one of the new queens in music industry & she did it very well. Her other top songs in her album "One of The Boys" include; "I kissed a girl", "Hot n Cold", "You're so gay" & etc..She has unique style of her own (the short dresses)..whatever it is..she is the star of her own...I'm not a "kipas-susah-mati" of Katy Perry..but i do think she is COOL....Do check out her official website for more info www.katyperry.com

Old school song...

2009-03-11T02:11:00.000-07:00

Last weekend while lepak-lepak with mama & my lil bro..suddenly an old school song
pop up in my head....My lil bro tak penah dengar lagu tu..it was a children song masa primary school dulu.....siap penah perform kat stage lagi mse Hari Penyampaian Anugerah ke Hari Guru Or English Week...x ingat..de lagi a few song...tp ni paling ingt la..huhu...so sad budak zaman sekarang tak tau lagu ni....well...to anyone yang tak penah dengar or tau kewujudan lagu ni..sila rujuk di bawah

QUE SERA-SERA

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Pero Me Acuerdo De Ti..

2009-03-09T00:18:00.000-07:00

This song made me cry a lot.....brings a lot of memories....

Ahora que ya mi vida se encuentra normal, ooh
Que tengo en casa quien suea con verme llegar, ooh ohh
Ahora puedo decir que me encuentro de pie
Ahora que, me va muy bien

Ahora que con el tiempo logr superar, mmhmm
Aquel amor que por poco me llega a matar, no ooh
Ahora ya (ahora ya), no hay mas dolor (no hay mas dolor)
Ahora al fin, vuelvo a ser yo

Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y otra vez pierdo la calma
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y se me desgarra el alma
Pero me acuerdo de t
Y se borra mi sonrisa
Pero me acuerdo de t
Y mi mundo se hace trizas, ooh ohh

Ahora que mi futuro comienza a brillar, mmhmm
Ahora que me han devuelto la seguridad, oh ooh
Ahora ya (ahora ya), no hay mas dolor (no hay mas dolor)
Ahora al fin, vuelvo a ser yo

Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y otra vez pierdo la calma
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y se me desgarra el alma
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y se borra mi sonrisa
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y mi mundo se hace trizas

Ohh ooh ohh
Pero me acuerdo de ti
No ohhh...no no
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y se me desgarra el alma
Oh, pero me acuerdo de ti
Mi sonrisa
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Mi mundo trizas

Pero me acuerdo de ti
Ooh, ahh...
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Oh, pero me, pero me, pero me
Pero me acuerdo de ti, oh ah
Pero me acuerdo de ti, oh ooh ohh oh
Pero me acuerdo de ti

But I Remember You

Now that my life is normal
Now that I got someone in home
How dreams with me coming
Now I can say that I am Ok
Now that I am good
Now with the time, I could get over
that love that almost kill me
Now there, is no pain
Now at last, it's me again
But I remember you
And again I loose my peace
But I remember you
And my heart destroys
But I remember you
And my smiles erase
But I remember you
And my world destroys
Now that my future begins to shine
Now that got my security back
Now there, is no more pain
Now at last, its me again
But I remember you
And again I loose my peace
But I remember you
And my heart destroys
But I remember you
And my smiles erase
But I remember you
And my world destroys

(This is the English version of the lyrics that I get from youtube)

p/s: I couldn't find the official vid clip that is embeded-able ..hehe

Hey Gadis...

2009-02-21T18:58:00.000-08:00

This is my good fren,Faizal's favourite karaoke song...bila pegi karaoke je mesti die nyanyi lagu ni...I love this vid clips & wanted to share with you guys....comel gileee....hehe.....

HEY GADIS by Samsom

Hey gadis tinggalkan kekasihmu
Karena aku jauh lebih baik darinya
Hey gadis lupakan kekasihmu
Karena aku lebih layak untuk memelukmu

Hey gadis tunjuklah diriku
Oh karena aku pujangga terhebat untukmu
Hey gadis pilihlah diriku
Oh karena aku memang sempurna untuk dirimu

Andaikan saja kau tahu
Aku mencintaimu menyayangimu lebih dari siapapun
Meskipun engkau miliknya
Aku akan bertahan tak akan menyerah
Tuk dapatkan hatimu

Hey gadis tinggalkan kekasihmu
Karena aku jauh lebih baik darinya
Hey gadis lupakan kekasihmu
Karena aku lebih layak untuk memelukmu

Andaikan saja kau tahu
Aku mencintaimu menyayangimu lebih dari siapapun
Meskipun engkau miliknya
Aku akan bertahan tak akan menyerah
Tuk dapatkan hatimu

Hey gadis
Hey gadis

Aku tak pernah peduli kau telah dimiliki
Aku tak pernah mengerti kau memilih dia
Lepaskan saja dia dan sambutlah aku
Kan kuberikan semua yang kau inginkan

Aku tak pernah peduli dan menyayangimu
Aku tak pernah mengerti apa yang kau cari
Dan minta saja padaku dan peluklah aku
Kan kuberikan semua yang kau inginkan

Ku takkan pernah menyerah tetap mencintaimu
Aku tetap bertahan untuk dapatkan hatimu
Ku takkan pernah menyerah tetap mencintaimu
Aku tetap bertahan untuk dapatkan hatimu

I love thee..

2009-02-13T20:04:00.000-08:00

Valentine's Day atau Hari Kekasih.....some people rasa tak patut celebrate...but for me...yang penting niat kite........celebrate bersama yang tersayang..not limited to bf/gf je..tapi ngn family & friends juga....ia merupakan hari kasih sayang yang disambut hampir seluruh pelusuk dunia...bila datang je February...mcm2 jenis gifts n cards dijual...promotion hotel n restaurant juga banyak untuk 14 February...time ni jugala harga bunga2 nek...haha..xksahla setahun sekali...common gifts yang orang bagi pada tanggal 14 February ini ialah, bunga, chocolate, card & teddy bear rasenya....Valentine's kali ini celebrate ngan family je..sebab buah2 hati jauh...masa terluang digunakan untuk buat cupcake sempena Valentine's Day (seperti gambar di atas)...ia xlah secun cupcake yang dipromosi kat blog2 & majalah2...tapi jadilah nak makan sendiri...resepi adalah seperti dibawah:-

Apple Cupcake

Bahan-bahannya ialah:

2 eggs

3/4 cup of milk

1/3 cup of melted butter

1 teaspoon of pure vanilla extract

2 1/4 cups of all purpose flour

1/2 granulated sugar

1 teaspoon ground cinnamon

1 tablespoon of baking powder

2 cups of apples peeled & chopped

Cara-caranya ialah:

1. Panaskan oven 180-190 degrees Celcius

2. Sebatikan bahan-bahan A

3. Di mangkuk yang lain, campurkan bahan-bahan B

3. Campurkan bahan A & bahan B, gaul hingga sebati

4. Masukkan apple & kacau hingga sebati

5. Masukkan dalam paper cupcake 1/2 - 2/3 penuh

6. Bakar untuk 18-20 minit

Buttercream Icing

Bahan-bahannya ialah:

1/2 cup of solid vegetable shortening

1/2 cup of butter/margerine softened

1 teaspoon of clear vanilla extract

4 cups of sifted icing sugar

2 tablespoon of milk

Pewarna yang dibenarkan

Cara-caranya ialah:

1. Campurkan shortening & butter, gaul sehingga sebati

2. Masukkan vanilla

3. Masukkan gula sikit-sikit (one cup at a time), gaul sampai icing tu nampak cam kering

4. Masukkan susu & gaulkan sampaila dia nampak light & fluffy

5. Tambah pewarna yang dibenarkan mengikut citarasa anda

6. Decorate sesuka hati..kalau creative mesti cantik...haha

Tips: Tutup icing dengan kain yang lembab sampaila time nak guna

P/s: Special dedicated to Lea, Aishah & Asma' Aljuned, Azwan, Nadiah,Syeela, family & frens....Love you guys....mwah2

Kadang-kadang..

2009-02-13T01:18:00.000-08:00

Kadang-kadang tu manusia ni sangat pelik.... Tak tau hujung pangkal...percaya je suma apa yg dia dengar....Kalau la kita ada kuasa untuk tau perkara sebenar, apa yang betul atau tak...sudah pasti semua orang menderita..so biarla apa mereka nak cakap..yang penting kita sendiri tau apa yang betul...sebab kita tak boleh nak jaga hati semua orang....lepas tu bila kita nak jaga hati...orang salah faham & fitnah mula la terjadi..dapat dosa kering je kan....tanggungla kalau taknak bertaubat....

-Live the life you love, love the life you live-

2009-02-11T18:52:00.000-08:00

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength while loving someone deeply gives you courage." Lao Tzu

This is the beauty quotes of the day...

When you know that someone loves you, you'll have the strength to face the world.

And when you love someone, you'll have the courage to do what it takes to move on.

Even though, the one you love is not the one that loves you...

at least you have both strength & courage to live your life to the fullest. =)

Honey & Blackpepper Chicken fresh from my kitchen..

2009-02-07T23:05:00.000-08:00

Mama dari haritu bising suruh masak ayam yang ayah beli dalam fridge tu...bukan taknak masak...cuma malas sedikit...hehe....finally on dis very boring Sunday, masak jugak ayam tu..hehe....the name should be honey & blackpepper chicken..since they are the major ingredients...the taste???!! erm...I don't know what people think but it's good enough for me (is it because i'm the one who cook it?)....kalau nak cube..silakan...

Bahan-bahannya ialah:

Sebiji bawang merah dihiris halus

4 ulas bawang putih dihiris

2 sudu besar madu

3 sudu besar sos lada hitam

2 sudu besar sos tiram

1 sudu besar sos barbeque

1/2 sudu besar garam

1/2 sudu besar gula

lada sulah secukup rasa

Beberapa ketul ayam yang dipotong besar seperti gambar di atas

2 biji ubi kentang dipotong 4

1 batang lobak merah yang dipotong panjang-panjang

1/2 biji bawang merah dihiris

2 ulas bawang putih dihiris

3 sudu besar minyak masak (butter pun boleh)

Cara-caranya ialah:

1. Blend bahan-bahan A bersama

2. Perap ayam & bahan-bahan A yang telah diblend selama 1/2 jam atau lebih

2. Panaskan minyak masak di dalam kuali (I'm using oven pan)

3. Masukkan bahan-bahan D di dalam kuali, goreng hingga baunya naik

4. Masukkan ayam yang telah diperap (bersama bahan perap) bersama bahan-bahan C

5. Tutup kuali dan biarkan beberapa minit sehingga ia diyakini masak..hehe....

Untuk sos??!!..'cecah' je ngan sambal belacan..da tentu sedap =p

It was just a memory....

2009-02-07T04:56:00.000-08:00

Whenever this song played on the radio...I'll feel sad...sepi...sayu...ntahla..maybe because ade beberape hati yg pernah dilukai kut...i'm sorry...sume tu bersebab...and ade hikmah disabalik sumenye...n guess wat..sume bahagia ngn kehidupan masing2 kan skrang....walau pe pun yg terucap n tak terucap...sumenya da jadi memori...a memory dat will never be erased....

We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
That we ain't talk since we left, it's so over due
It's cold outside but between us

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's lefts good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Everyday, seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep
But will you sleep once I tell you

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's lefts good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like northing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause i see sunset in your eyes

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's lefts good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you

That I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it

I hate this part right here
And I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here

2009 Economic Crisis..

2009-02-03T23:02:00.000-08:00

How big is the impact.... to Orange =p

I'm here not to talk about the economy..how the Dollars, MYR or Yen drops in the stock market worldwide.Because I have no idea on what it is all about...but since I'm 'makan gaji' right now, 'terasa juga penangannya'.I started my career in high petrol price period, I have to spend half of my salary to fill up my tank + the tolss...YIKES!!It was a bless when the petrol price drops..and then came the economic crisis + the war(yes, it is related)...At first, I thought nothing much to worry.But by working in a big worldwide company (own by the US, which is why the crisis & the war related), the crisis felt to the throat. No, they don't cut-off my pay. No, they don't kick me off..yet...but I do feel the impact now. Need to save more, and spend less (the hardest part)...I'm in a job hunting right now,to reserve place before my contract end this October. Less than 9 months to go. In this type of 'season', a dream job might be just a dream.....hope there will always be the 'sun' after the 'rain' =)

JEALOUS??!!

2009-02-03T18:30:00.000-08:00

JEALOUSY....it's the feeling that occur to man & woman...wether it's just a bit or drawn u under...I'd experience it, & I'm sure most of u do. I came to an article from YAHOO on OVERCOMING JEALOUSY which remind me of some funny moments in my journey till dis very moment. These are some of the tips to overcome the green-eyed montser in you..specially dedicated to each and everyone of u.. =)

1. Leave the Players and the Flirts Behind

One of the best ways to overcome jealousy is to not get involved with flirts and players. One of the best ways to overcome jealousy is to not get involved with flirts and players. There are singles out there who will thrive on making you jealous because they like the dating drama and attention. If you're jealous, they know that you are constantly obsessing over them and dwelling on them. By provoking your jealousy, they've just made themselves the center of your universe. Instead, be smart -- kick them out of your universe and find a better date.

2. Determine if You're Jealous in This Relationship or Every Relationship

In order to overcome jealousy, you've got to figure out whether you're being real or being paranoid. Normal jealousy can actually serve a purpose. It's there to alert you to a partner's possible infidelity -- a threat to the relationship. Is your relationship actually being threatened or is the jealousy in your head only? A good way to figure out if there's a basis to your jealousy is to reflect on your past relationships. Are you always jealous even if you haven't had a reason to be? Do you have trust issues in every relationship or just this one? Also, talk to some friends or family who can be objective about the situation and help you sort out your jealous feelings -- a counselor can also be helpful with this.

3. Get Confident in Dating

The source of a lot of the jealousy has nothing to do with what your date does; it lies within you. If you're upset because your date drools a little when he or she sees a fashion model or celebrity in a magazine, don't start comparing yourself to that image. Work on your dating confidence and focus on all you have to offer. Then, your envy of others will dramatically decrease.

4. Talk It Through

Learn to communicate your jealous feelings in a healthy way. For instance, let your mate know that you're jealous about the amount of time the attractive coworker gets to spend with him or her. Make sure as you're talking, you're not accusing. Accusing makes any person defensive, and you won't get anywhere.

5. Draw the Line

Particularly, if you are in a monogamous relationship with someone, you need to establish what behaviors are acceptable to you and what behaviors will bring out the green-eyed monster in you. Are you okay with your partner constantly texting a single man -- or single woman? Will that send you over the edge? How do you feel about your partner dancing with someone else at a club when you aren't around? Establishing reasonable boundaries and respecting them gets both of you on the same playing field. Establishing reasonable boundaries and respecting them gets both of you on the same playing field. The keyword here is reasonable. Setting a boundary like "Don't talk to any single men -- or single women -- you work with" is an impossible and smothering line to draw.

6. Strengthen Your Relationship in Other Ways

If you're overly jealous when there isn't a whole lot of reason to be, it means that your relationship isn't as strong as it should be. You need to evaluate what's lacking. Are you not spending enough quality time together? Has the passion died down over the years? Once you identify what's really concerning you, then you can address it with your partner and work on strengthening the relationship rather than wasting time and energy on empty jealous feelings.

by Caroline Presno, Ed.D., P.C.C

XoxoxO

2009-02-02T00:23:00.000-08:00

I was ridin' shotgun with my hair undone in the front seat of his car
He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart I look around, turn the radio down
He says baby is something wrong?
I say nothing I was just thinking how we don't have a song
And he says...

Our song is the slamming screen door
Sneaking out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home, 'fore I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was walking up the front porch steps after everything that day
Had gone all wrong and been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway, well on my way to my lovin' bed
I almost didn't notice all the roses And the note that said...
Our Song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "Man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home, 'fore I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again
I've heard every album listened to the radio
Waiting for something to come along that was as good as our song...
'Cause our song is the slamming screen door
Sneaking out late, tapping on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
'Cause it's late and his mama don't know
Our song is the way he laughs
The first date "man, I didn't kiss him, and I should have"
And when I got home, 'fore I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again
Play it again, play it again oh yeah uh huh yeah

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I, wrote down our song

by Taylor Swift

Oooopss.....

2009-01-27T08:04:00.000-08:00

Who Do You Think I Am
Don't You Know That He Was My Man
But I Chose To Let Him Go
So Why Do You Act Like I Still Care About Him
Looking At Me Like I'm Hurt
When I'm The One Who Said I Didn't Want It To Work
Don't You Forget I Had Him First

Whatcha' Thinking
Stop Blaming Me
He Wasn't Man Enough For Me
If You Don't Know Now Here's Your Chance
I've Already Had Your Man
Do You Wonder Just Where He's Been Yeah
And I'd Be Worried About Him
Now It's Time You Know The Truth
I Think He's Just The Man For You

What Are You Thinking
Do You Know About Us Back Then
Do You Know I Dumped your Husband
Girlfriend
I'm Not Thinking 'Bout Him
But You Married Him
Do You Know I Made Him Leave
Do You Know He Begged To Stay With Me
He Wasn't Man Enough For Me

Didn't He Tell You The Truth
If Not Then Why Don't You Ask Him
And Maybe You Could Be More Into Him
Instead Of Worrying 'Bout Me
And Hopefully You Won't Find
All Of The Reasons Why His Love Didn't Count
And Why We Couldn't Work It Out

Whatcha' Thinking
Stop Blaming Me
He Wasn't Man Enough For Me
If You Don't Know Now Here's Your Chance
I've Already Had Your Man
Do You Wonder Just Where He's Been Yeah
And I'd Be Worried About Him
Now It's Time You Know The Truth
I Think He's Just The Man For You

What Are You Thinking
Do You Know About Us Back Then
Do You Know I Dumped your Husband
Girlfriend
I'm Not Thinking 'Bout Him
But You Married Him
Do You Know I Made Him Leave
Do You Know He Begged To Stay With Me
He Wasn't Man Enough For Me

What Are You Thinking
Do You Know About Us Back Then
Do You Know I Dumped your Husband
Girlfriend
I'm Not Thinking 'Bout Him
But You Married Him
Do You Know I Made Him Leave
Do You Know He Begged To Stay With Me
He Wasn't Man Enough For Me

So Many Reasons Why Our Love Is Through
What Makes You Think He'll Be Good To You
It Makes No Sense
'Cause He Will Never Change
Girl You Better Recognize The Game

hE WASN'T MAN ENOUGH FOR ME

BY tONI BRAXTON

**To whom it may concern**

Beautiful...

2009-01-07T21:33:00.000-08:00

"All life is beautiful. All humans are beautiful. Only behavior makes one ugly." - Jeffrey C. Keene II

Beautiful is so subjective that makes it hard to describe. When you describe someone or something as beautiful it may takes a lot of indicators to finally describe he/she/it as beautiful. Each of organisms on this earth has it's own beauty. Not onlyphysically, but also in the inside. Upon all the beauties created by GOD, what's make them ugly were their behavior. No matter how beautifull you are, if you have bad behavior you are ugly (hukhukhuk). In my point of view, one of the bad behavior (referring to who should be labeled as ugly) is 'gedixxx' (Nadiah punya ayat). I don't know about anyone else, but for me the behavior of 'gedixx' makes u 'menconteng arang dimuka sendiri'...poor you...

"Gedixx" (inmy point of view) is being labeled when that particular someone behave & thinks childishly (ade ke word ni..) & thinks she is perfect/more than anyone else...No matter how physicallybeautiful you are..you are not beautiful..sorry, if it's a bit harsh...you are ugly. However, each one of us is different....you may colour your life as black, white, yellow or even pink...because that's makes the world more interesting..right =)

p/s: I choose green...go environmental =p

Still 22 & loving it....

2009-01-05T17:10:00.000-08:00

At this very moment I'm 22 years old & 9 months..I was graduated from Universiti Teknologi Mara Malaysia, Shah Alam in June 2008 (about 6 months ago). I was honoured with 2nd Class Upper in B.SC (Hons) Environmental Technology. Major in Environment was never my been in my mind, but with a bit lower grades in matriculation that was the best offer I got. Well, I'm quiet disappointed at first. But,as 3 years past by it was not so bad after all... Alhamdulillah I managed to get 3.35, which was good enough for me (setimpal dengan usaha yang tak seberapa tu..=p).

Within one month after I graduated,I was offered my first job as Environmental Engineer at a small company. The place was horrible since it was a new established e-waste recycle company with only less than 10 employees... What do I do?? Nothing, just sit & surfing the internet =). Fed up with the boring job, I tried applying for a new jobs. Upon many resumes I've send to the companies all over Malaysia. Only one replied...Intel Products (M) Sdn Bhd...I was interviewed for EHS Engineer position,however..since I had no related working experience & not a green card holder yet (SHO) I was offered a one year contract as EHS Assistant Officer. Even though it's not a stable position but as what the EHS manager told me, "A year contract with Intel will give you a GOOD resume"....well, they paid me enough though...

Within a few months, PHY 9512 Viva Ez Pearl Jed was born under my name...it was nothing to proud of, but at least this one everything was on me..wait...a subsidized downpayment from Mama...hehe...But being able to spend money you earn by yourself, couldn't be more enjoying except that I need to become much wiser in spending...hehe...Well, for me it's a good start & more to come...right now I'm enjoying my life while gaining experiences for my coming jobs...wihuuu...

Lovebug

2009-01-04T02:18:00.000-08:00

One of the 7 wonders of the world in my point of view..music with good lyrics....

Called you for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close but you were far away
Left me without anything to say

Now I'm speechless, over the edge
I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again

I can't get your smile out of my mind
[I can't get you out of my mind]
I think about your eyes all the time
You're beautiful but you don't even try
(You don't even, don't even try)
Modesty is just so hard to find

Now I'm speechless, over the edge
I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again

Kissed her for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless
Baby can't you see?

Now I'm...
Now I'm speechless, over the edge
I'm just breathless I never thought that
I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again
Love Bug again

by Jonas Brothers

My favourite dish....

2009-01-03T07:24:00.000-08:00

Upon variety types of delicous asian dish we have....TOMYAM would be my favourite...love the spicy & sour taste of tomyam....nyum2...So here I would like to share my spicy thick tomyum recipe...

SPICY & THICK TOMYUM

What do we need???

500 ml - Air

A
2 keping - Daun limau purut dihiris
1 batang - Serai dicincang
1 ulas - Bawang dicincang
2 sudu - Cili blander/ cili boh (cili- here in the north we call it cabai)
3 sudu - Tomyam paste

B
Isi ayam dipotong dadu
Udang
Sotong
Daging dipotong nipis
(ikut suka nak banyak mana)

C
2 biji - Tomato dipotong 4
1 biji - Bawang dihiris nipis
2 batang - Serai diketuk
1 keping - Daun limau purut dibuang bahagian tengah (my mom cakap[ bahagian tengah ni pahit)
5 biji - Cili padi (nak pedas tambah lagi)
Bunga kobis
Kobis
5 biji - Limau kasturi diperah (amik air dia je k, jgn masukkan biji)

Beginilah caranya:

1. Bahan-bahan A diblend bersama
2. Didihkan air bersama bahan A yang telah diblend
3. Masukkan isi ayam, daging & sotong
4. Selepas beberapa ketika masukkan udang
5. Diikuti bahan-bahan C
6. Setelah mendidih & diyakini dah masak tutup api & ia sedia untuk dihidangkan...nyum-nyum..
7. Eat while it still hot... (*-*)

p/s: To all readers, if ada pape kurang just leave a comment okay...ni type secara spontan je ni...

7 Wonders of the World in my point of view...

2009-01-02T08:22:00.000-08:00

It's not the Babylon or even Taj Mahal...

1. Love
A gift of love..love between a man & a woman..love at first sight,first love,puppy love,love this, love that ..this include love to ur mother, father, siblings & the rest of the family (wic include ur pets)...& not to be forgotten love to GOD, Allah SWT

2. Rainbow

Yes rainbow...I don't care how science describe rainbow..how the light were refracted through the waterdrops & yada yada yada...I just love the colors & amaze how it is just there...hehe..I used to watch double rainbows in the sky on one fine evening w a fren...we were amazed by its beauty...(one for u & one for me)..

3. Music..with a lyrics
I adored music...but...it must come w a good lyrics...I love variety kind of musics...this is because I fall in love with the lyrics first before I love the music...I'm fascinate on how a music with a lyrics were composed & a great song is produced..

4. Mobile phone
There's nothing to fascinate about the mobile phone..it just that how it become a needs in our daily life...it become a trend & a must have.. people would desperate to have the latest phones in the market..read my brother point of view on new mobile phones - Hafiz Elias

5. Transport
The invention of transportation..whatever the size, shape & the method or whatever they are...cars, lorries, vans, train, aeroplanes,ships, motorcycles, bicycles & etc...something that can move u to ur destination regardless of the distance.. just imagine our life without one of it? we would still be riding all the animals that we can get..hehehe..

6. Flowers
Roses, daisies, orchids, hibiscus, lilies & etc...the flowers can be used to express feelings...on valentines day, funeral, weddings, anniversary or it just showing some love...

7. Shoes

I don't know bout you guys..but i definately say shoes are one of the 7 wonders....just see how the designers express shoes in variety of design & colors...just see how people would become a shoe-craze...some people would just buy a pair of shoes for a collection...

A new chapter...

2009-01-02T00:32:00.000-08:00

My FS's blog was tagged by K Di early December..Since I'd been busy, I have no time to do the request...huhu...since da bosan with FS's blog...try blogspot la plak...So...as requested...

Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog: Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random some weird. Tag 7 people at the end of your post. Leave your names as well as links on their blogs let them know that they're tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

1. Orange Babey :
Why Orange? Not because I love the color, not because I'm a fan of Zahid AF or not because i love to eat the fruit. It's because a guy i used to admire..stressed again 'used to'..not anymore...but seems the name lekat smp skrg for no reason...=p
Why Babey? Is it a surname? No lah..it just a name created during my childhood (in d good old days)...hehe...well..my nieces & nephews call me Ayung Babey...

2. Cats :
I love cats but allergic to them... =( Tapi bila da geram sgt tgk kucing yg gemuk2 blaka tu, I would just grab them n hug them.huhu..after dat I would suffer w watery eyes & cold...hehe..padan muka!!!

3. Shoes :
Every girls love shoes...wait...boys do love shoes okay...they would die to have Onitsuka Tigers from Asics...Masa zaman muda2 dlu(mse sek ye...), bla boring dgr
cikgu ngajar, terutama subjek BM (maafkan saya ckgu Napi)..suke sgt design kasut..smpaila last class ckgu napi die pesan kat smua org " Kalau ye pun nak jadi
perke kasut ke ape ke, yg penting blajar dlu"..hehe I love comfort shoes...My lovely friend Nadiah always said "Adij nape ske sgt ksut cmni, cm org tua kut". I would say, "Rupa xpenting, yg penting selesa". I do love "pretty shoes, but I would wear them once or twice..and then keep it as private collection...=p

4. Daydreamer
In my good old days..I love day dreaming...de msa lapang je brangan...hehe.. =p.. skrg pun de la jgak kdg2 tu.hehe...

5. Stuffed animals
Sebesar2, sekecik2 suma ada dlm blik..termasuk dlm kereta..hehe...

6. Ex-boyfriends
Close doesn't mean we're in love...In-love doesn't mean we're together...we used to share a lot of memories...those memories build a friendship...I have good relationship with my ex's,as a fren...when u have problems with ur partner u might want to share them with ur besties wic is d opposite sex...ex's would b d best person u can turn to....as wat they always do...but since suma da stabil...no more shoulder available to cry okay...i quit....hahaha

7. Emotional
I would become emotional (towards d opposite sex, especially to the BF..sorry dear xoxo) when I need an attention or feel neglected..haha..

The 7...

1. Lea
2. K di (Miss Diva Controversy)
3. Arizanitis (pls spell backward)
4. Miss Affnie
5. Isz Kilau
6. Miss Zaty
7. Hafiz Elias

By the way..hope it's not too late to wish "HAPPY NEW YEAR" & Happy Birthday to my brother Hafiz who turn 20 today..luv u...

Regards,
Orange