Hold my breath...

Almost everyday I'm waking up and thinking what exactly I want in this life and what exactly I'm looking for. I've been wasting half of my life searching and hoping for something that I'm not sure of. I always thought I was right, even though I knew it was wrong. I felt empty, even though my heart was full. I felt loosing, even though I won. I made mistakes as everyone did. I made wrong decisions as everyone did. I just don't know how to start a new beginning where I should have start years ago. I just don't know how to let go what I should have let go years ago. I just don't know....